I'm still packing, and it's almost 2am. This is what'll happen when you keep everything away till the last minute.
What should I bring? What should I not bring? Need it or need it not? I'm in a dilemma now, amongst these chaos. Someone please help me get this packing done! I want my beauty sleep... T.T
Gonna head off tomorrow morning to Bukit Jalil, where I'll start my uni life. It would be pretty exciting, if not for all that had happened and this packing-mess I'm in now... Would also appreciate it if that place is less isolated, if the rental could be lower, and if there is easier access to food & other necessities... Seriously, the price of accomodations at Vista is very unreasonable, weighing the unstrategic location and bad condition of the blocks. I gotta survive by a thread with only RM700+ per month.
Neways, no use complaining, just gotta make the best out of it. ^_^
And for now, goodbye home-cooked food, goodbye my Streamyx connection, goodbye Baby Yaw Yaw, goodbye my queen-size bed, goodbye guitar, goodbye my long fingernails and goodbye black nail polish... Adíos, adíos everything and everyone.
No worries, I'll be back. So wait for me! Till then...
Sigh, back to packing... *faints*
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Rest In Peace...
Results day today. I almost forgot about it, if not for all the shoutouts and conversations of my friends on facebook. Many were already waiting by the computer hours ago, anticipating... It reminded me much of the SPM day where all of us were at school early, loitering around the corridor, with feelings almost similar to this. And I really really hate these type of anticipation and suspense... Argh!!!
But I didn't get to check my results until much later.
I had a funeral to attend in the morning. OMG a funeral. For my uncle who passed away yesterday, due to cardiac arrest. No one expected this to happen, I mean, he wasn't old enough to die. It was shocking news to us. It was said that he was playing badminton with his friends, and when he sat down to rest, he just... died.
And just as funerals are, it was depressing, sad, and gloomy. My uncle's family weren't Christians, so they had a traditional Chinese funeral, with rituals, chants, and joss-sticks. We helped folding paper money for the dead. I watched my cousins performing rituals after rituals, with red-rimmed eyes, and tear-stained cheeks... it was heart-breaking, really. Hard as it is for all of us who lost a relative, it sure is double the pain to lose your own father.
They cloud of sorrow stayed on later at the cremation centre. It was the first time I'd ever been there, but I wish I never had to. There were rows of rooms equiped with furnaces, and there were tracks for the coffins to be rolled into the furnace... It was sorta, just like a factory. Everything was so... business-like. Made me wonder how lifeless could the dead be. *dunno if you get what I mean*
Neways, there was this one other family beside ours at the centre, performing the last ritual. And the one thing that caught my attention was that their coffin wasn't just like any other I'd ever seen. It was... small. Unmistakably a child's coffin. Such a devasting sight.
Why oh why?
Children were supposed to be running about; playing with toy cars, dolls and balls; putting off their homeworks for tomorrows which are sure to come; enjoying a dance class or two; talking about what they will be in future; waiting impatiently to grow up... And not lying cold and lifeless in tiny coffins.
No, no, no...
Rest in peace, uncle. Rest in peace, child. Let the families get over the grief of losing their loved ones, I pray. Bless my aunt and my cousins, guide them through this tough period of life. Father, grant us all from now on, more of joy and less of sorrow I pray. Have mercy. Amen.
But I didn't get to check my results until much later.
I had a funeral to attend in the morning. OMG a funeral. For my uncle who passed away yesterday, due to cardiac arrest. No one expected this to happen, I mean, he wasn't old enough to die. It was shocking news to us. It was said that he was playing badminton with his friends, and when he sat down to rest, he just... died.
And just as funerals are, it was depressing, sad, and gloomy. My uncle's family weren't Christians, so they had a traditional Chinese funeral, with rituals, chants, and joss-sticks. We helped folding paper money for the dead. I watched my cousins performing rituals after rituals, with red-rimmed eyes, and tear-stained cheeks... it was heart-breaking, really. Hard as it is for all of us who lost a relative, it sure is double the pain to lose your own father.
They cloud of sorrow stayed on later at the cremation centre. It was the first time I'd ever been there, but I wish I never had to. There were rows of rooms equiped with furnaces, and there were tracks for the coffins to be rolled into the furnace... It was sorta, just like a factory. Everything was so... business-like. Made me wonder how lifeless could the dead be. *dunno if you get what I mean*
Neways, there was this one other family beside ours at the centre, performing the last ritual. And the one thing that caught my attention was that their coffin wasn't just like any other I'd ever seen. It was... small. Unmistakably a child's coffin. Such a devasting sight.
Why oh why?
Children were supposed to be running about; playing with toy cars, dolls and balls; putting off their homeworks for tomorrows which are sure to come; enjoying a dance class or two; talking about what they will be in future; waiting impatiently to grow up... And not lying cold and lifeless in tiny coffins.
No, no, no...
Rest in peace, uncle. Rest in peace, child. Let the families get over the grief of losing their loved ones, I pray. Bless my aunt and my cousins, guide them through this tough period of life. Father, grant us all from now on, more of joy and less of sorrow I pray. Have mercy. Amen.
And dear Father, thanks for my results.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Szomorú Vasárnap
So I had promised to talk about Gloomy Sunday yesterday... which for whatever reason it was, I didn't want to talk about since yesterday was a Sunday. *ignore this idk what I'm crapping*
Well, for a start, it's positively one of my all-time-favourite song. I've never heard any other song like this. Yes, it's extremely beautiful, even when it's painful. Can't even say it's sad, it's something way beyond boundaries that word could ever reach.
Oh, the lyrics...!
No wonder it was dubbed the Hungarian suicide song in the US. It was said to have inspired hundreds of suicide cases, even including the song composer himself, Rezső Seress. To the extend that the song had to be banned in some places... Sort of meta-legend. *idk, believe it or not*
According to Wiki, the song was composed based on a Hungarian poem "Szomorú Vasárnap", in which the singer mourns the untimely death of a lover and contemplates suicide. And here is the beautifully depressing song lyrics.
Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not when the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy is Sunday
with shadows I spend it all,
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are said I know,
But let them not weep,
Let them know that I'm glad to go...
Death is no dream,
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday
Dreaming,
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of my heart
Dear,
Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday
*author is not in any way responsible for any suicide or depression caused by the contents of this post...*
Happy appreciating the beauty of this song, everyone. ^_^
Well, for a start, it's positively one of my all-time-favourite song. I've never heard any other song like this. Yes, it's extremely beautiful, even when it's painful. Can't even say it's sad, it's something way beyond boundaries that word could ever reach.
Oh, the lyrics...!
No wonder it was dubbed the Hungarian suicide song in the US. It was said to have inspired hundreds of suicide cases, even including the song composer himself, Rezső Seress. To the extend that the song had to be banned in some places... Sort of meta-legend. *idk, believe it or not*
According to Wiki, the song was composed based on a Hungarian poem "Szomorú Vasárnap", in which the singer mourns the untimely death of a lover and contemplates suicide.
This is the literal English translation of the poem...
Gloomy Sunday with a hundred white flowers
I was waiting for you my dearest with a prayer
A Sunday morning, chasing after my dreams
The carriage of my sorrow returned to me without you
It is since then that my Sundays have been forever sad
Tears my only drink, the sorrow my bread...
Gloomy Sunday
Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not when the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy is Sunday
with shadows I spend it all,
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are said I know,
But let them not weep,
Let them know that I'm glad to go...
Death is no dream,
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday
Dreaming,
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of my heart
Dear,
Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday
*author is not in any way responsible for any suicide or depression caused by the contents of this post...*
Happy appreciating the beauty of this song, everyone. ^_^
Sunday, August 16, 2009
So I'm Already Gone
Reviews again! So here's for Week 7...
x Have fun. Yeah, loads of great fun with everyone. (Yeah. Buckets and buckets of fun. Had them all kept asking for me even before I got there; had nice chats; laughed at jokes; had a last admirational look at the pretty dance shoes in The Shoes Book, as we all call it; Zili finally came back & danced the Rumba routines with me for the last time; had some tiring Jive; did double spins in the warm-ups; Edwin belanja sweets; Sifu fetched me home... )
One thing to note, I even got the keys from Sifu and went up to the dark-dusty-abandoned 3rd floor(attic) of the building just for a fun adventure, alone. I'm really sorry I spent too long up there till I made everyone worried and sent Zili and Joey up to check on me x.x
It was real cool there. Almost exactly like those abandoned flat units we saw in horror movies, minus the ghost. There were even rooms with spider webs all over the door handles, mouldy balcony, water-marks on the ceiling, a table and chairs covered with dust, loads of old stuff piled up in a corner, and a white board with these words scribbled on it...
Lolololol... you'd thought it was something like HELP ME or I WILL KILL YOU rite? Nah, don't let your imaginations run too wild. ^_^ But I really love the verse --- YOU CAN WALK, YOU CAN DANCE!!! *there's even a chinese version below there...*
I wonder if it was another of Sifu's theory. But it's pretty inspiring! I wonder why is that whiteboard stacked away in the dark dusty attic, cuz if it was to be hung outside the studio door, guess it will give many people the courage and confidence to take up dancing!!!
Maybe it was purposely hidden so far away and only people who are adventurous enough to go up the dark and heavily-blocked staircase will find it. As usually lessons of life can't be learnt the easy way mar... *this hypothesis of mine isn't really possible*
Anyway, another lesson learnt from the trip to the attic!!! ^_^
x Give my best for everything, routines or warm-ups. (Sure I did! Routines still weren't perfect, still lotta stumble and flaws. Still sorry Zili for being a lousy partner... But no regrets, for I'd already tried my best. Just that I need to be better. I'll work on it, even when I'm gone. Promise.)
x Give that song lyrics for little Xiu Xin as I'd already promised. (I'm not one who breaks promises easily.)
x Accept Sifu's car-ride back home. This might be the last time I'll ever be on her cute-cutely decorated car... *awww... emo emo!!!* (Thanks for the car-ride again, Sifu! And all the car-rides in the past. I still remember all the laughs and chats we had in the car-rides home since last time. The things that you told me, life lessons you taught me, questions that you asked me, advices that you gave me... For everything, thank you again, so much. You're awesome! And just as I'd always told you, once my Sifu, forever my Sifu!!! I'll miss you so.)
x Say goodbye and hope to meet you again someday to everyone. (T.T)
******* ******* *******
Carino's right, it's always hard to say goodbye. One more week before I'm leaving Ipoh and this life that I had for the past 2 months. For a new phase of life, still pretty much unknown, ahead.
There got to be changes in life. Not that I dislike them, but sometimes, there's just part of me that doesn't want anything to change, because I'm happy with life as it is now. I love life as it is now.
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
This time, I'm the one.
Just a word I wanna change here:
There IS moving on
So i'm already gone
I'm moving on. But not forgetting, these memories.
I'll be back. Wait for me.
Picture credits to Ok4mi
Btw, thanks Kelly.
x Have fun. Yeah, loads of great fun with everyone. (Yeah. Buckets and buckets of fun. Had them all kept asking for me even before I got there; had nice chats; laughed at jokes; had a last admirational look at the pretty dance shoes in The Shoes Book, as we all call it; Zili finally came back & danced the Rumba routines with me for the last time; had some tiring Jive; did double spins in the warm-ups; Edwin belanja sweets; Sifu fetched me home... )
One thing to note, I even got the keys from Sifu and went up to the dark-dusty-abandoned 3rd floor(attic) of the building just for a fun adventure, alone. I'm really sorry I spent too long up there till I made everyone worried and sent Zili and Joey up to check on me x.x
It was real cool there. Almost exactly like those abandoned flat units we saw in horror movies, minus the ghost. There were even rooms with spider webs all over the door handles, mouldy balcony, water-marks on the ceiling, a table and chairs covered with dust, loads of old stuff piled up in a corner, and a white board with these words scribbled on it...
Lolololol... you'd thought it was something like HELP ME or I WILL KILL YOU rite? Nah, don't let your imaginations run too wild. ^_^ But I really love the verse --- YOU CAN WALK, YOU CAN DANCE!!! *there's even a chinese version below there...*
I wonder if it was another of Sifu's theory. But it's pretty inspiring! I wonder why is that whiteboard stacked away in the dark dusty attic, cuz if it was to be hung outside the studio door, guess it will give many people the courage and confidence to take up dancing!!!
Maybe it was purposely hidden so far away and only people who are adventurous enough to go up the dark and heavily-blocked staircase will find it. As usually lessons of life can't be learnt the easy way mar... *this hypothesis of mine isn't really possible*
Anyway, another lesson learnt from the trip to the attic!!! ^_^
x Give my best for everything, routines or warm-ups. (Sure I did! Routines still weren't perfect, still lotta stumble and flaws. Still sorry Zili for being a lousy partner... But no regrets, for I'd already tried my best. Just that I need to be better. I'll work on it, even when I'm gone. Promise.)
x Give that song lyrics for little Xiu Xin as I'd already promised. (I'm not one who breaks promises easily.)
x Accept Sifu's car-ride back home. This might be the last time I'll ever be on her cute-cutely decorated car... *awww... emo emo!!!* (Thanks for the car-ride again, Sifu! And all the car-rides in the past. I still remember all the laughs and chats we had in the car-rides home since last time. The things that you told me, life lessons you taught me, questions that you asked me, advices that you gave me... For everything, thank you again, so much. You're awesome! And just as I'd always told you, once my Sifu, forever my Sifu!!! I'll miss you so.)
x Say goodbye and hope to meet you again someday to everyone. (T.T)
******* ******* *******
Carino's right, it's always hard to say goodbye. One more week before I'm leaving Ipoh and this life that I had for the past 2 months. For a new phase of life, still pretty much unknown, ahead.
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
There got to be changes in life. Not that I dislike them, but sometimes, there's just part of me that doesn't want anything to change, because I'm happy with life as it is now. I love life as it is now.
You know that i love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
This time, I'm the one.
Just a word I wanna change here:
There IS moving on
So i'm already gone
I'm moving on. But not forgetting, these memories.
I'll be back. Wait for me.
Picture credits to Ok4miBtw, thanks Kelly.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Week 7 - Gloomy is Sunday
16th of August (Sunday) ----- 2.35 a.m.
And again, another week goes by. Trying to stall time is almost as grasping threads of wind with my bare hands. Not that I didn't like the prospect of going to uni soon, but still, there is this lazy part of Jiyi who wishes her holiday (and dance classes with Sifu) could last on till forever. *lol... I'm hopeless*
Tomorrow's gonna be my last dance class. Expectations? There sure are many but I can't really think of them now with this tired mind of mine... Guess I'll leave that for later? *typical my-style-procrastinating* Just one thing, I wish I'll have a great time. Sure do!
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There's still stuff I wanna blog about but... I'm so tired I can't really think straight now...
So... nighty nitez!
*******
16th of August (Sunday) ----- 12.15 pm
So I had only just woke up about an hour ago... *yawnn*
Sleeping late = waking up late... Seriously, I gotta get my life back on track.
But now, checklist for Week 7!
_ Have fun. Yeah, loads of great fun with everyone.
_ Give my best for everything, routines or warm-ups.
_ Give that song lyrics for little Xiu Xin as I'd already promised.
_ Accept Sifu's car-ride back home. This might be the last time I'll ever be on her cute-cutely decorated car... *awww... emo emo!!!*
_ Say goodbye and hope to meet you again someday to everyone.
Notice that I didn't really put as much stress on myself about routines and all as the past weeks? Well I guess, for once, dancing seems not so important as spending some precious moments with people that I'll miss when I leave...
I'll miss I'll miss I'll miss...
*******
For Sundays like these, it doesn't help when Gloomy Sunday is playing over and over again on my playlist. T.T
OMG, it's like the most beautifully painfully sad song I'd ever heard. Seriously, it sends chills down my spine... brrr...
Why? You'll know, but I'm gonna leave this for later too. I'm hungry now. Time for lunch!!! lolololol....
P/S: Happy 16th, Carino!!!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Week 6 - Failed...!
One routine done. Only one more lesson to go. Seriously, I really don't feel like saying goodbye just yet. Actually, I never will.
Sentiments aside, I think I failed Week 6. Sobzzz sobzzzzz.....T.T
Let me review my checklist, and you'll know why.
x Get my heel protectors! (Yup, got a pair of P-2s!)
_ Work on my confidence. (You'll know why I failed this after you read on.)
_ Work on those feet. Especially balancing. (Gone are the balance...!!! Extra long spinning warm-ups made our heads spin like hell, poor YiWen had to hold on to the barre, another gal crossed my track & almost crashed into me, and I almost crashed into the mirrors...)
_ Work on postures and lines. Arm extensions, in particular. (I tell you, my lines were HORRIBLE!!! Those feet, I can't seems to ever get them right... *sobs*)
_ And again, don't look at feet! KEEP HEAD UP!!! (Unavoidable as I need to check on my feet which are often out of position... *sobbing even louder*)
_ Get a hang of the routines faster. At least same pace with the seniors. (The fact that I didn't cross this out is pretty much self-explanatory. *nearing breakdown* )
_ Don't get teased or scolded by Sifu. (Like I will never get bashings after all the mistakes and failures above?!! Fat chances! I wasn't the only one but still, that thought never helped one bit. Sorry I dissapointed you, Sifu.)
Yup, THAT CRAP was Week 6.
And yup, you've seen right, I had only 1 out of 7 crossed x out in my entire checklist.
And that one single thing was like, get heel protectors? How hard could that be?
*******
And very unlucky for us, there was a minor incident. The studio's power fuse was burnt midway through our lesson. When we were doing our centre point warm-ups to some music, suddenly the music went off and the whole place went black. T.T
So for the rest of the lesson, we had to dance in the "dark", without music too. It should be kinda romantic, if not for the heat that M'sia The Tropical Country is well known for. Man, we were perspiring mad thru the routines.
But still, that was no excuse for my failure. I should've worked harder. One thing, I didn't give in my fullest effort for that day, which is what I should be blamed for. I'm sorry, really sorry. Promise it won't happen again next time.
*******
When I went to get my heel protectors from Sifu, she sat on the floor helping me fit them in, when another gal asked her if she can have a pair too. Sifu said no, you hadn't had much acheivements yet. The gal was perplexed, why not? And I too was quizzical. So I asked her, huh?!! Then, do I? And she answered, well, a little!
I didn't know if she was joking or not. I couldn't see her face. Seriously I had always thought I was the worst in the entire class, since the rest of the students have at least more than one year of experience. Does Sifu really think that I had improved a little? I thought I was always a dissapointment. You may think, what's the big deal about such a mere comment? But you wouldn't know, how much it meant to me. You see, very rarely Sifu ever gives decent comments about everyone, and when she does, you sure should be real happy. Now you get me?
Neways, I know for sure that I'm still not up to standard yet. And looking from the way Week 6 went, I know that I'm not even close. Sifu used to advise me never to give what I'd learnt all back to her when I leave, and I'll hang on to that advise. I remember there was this other senior who told me the same thing, once you stop, you have to keep all da techniques persistent with you.. if not, you're gonna loose them someday!
*No worries, Jiyi will keep that in mind.*
Week 7 will be my last week there. I pray that it'll be much better. If not, I really won't be able to forgive myself.
Note to self: Have to work on the Rumba Roll that took me so long to figure out..*dummy me*
But for now, can I have some California Sushi Roll and Ebiko please??? Awww... I'm craving for you... scrumptilicious!!!!
Sentiments aside, I think I failed Week 6. Sobzzz sobzzzzz.....T.T
Let me review my checklist, and you'll know why.
x Get my heel protectors! (Yup, got a pair of P-2s!)
_ Work on my confidence. (You'll know why I failed this after you read on.)
_ Work on those feet. Especially balancing. (Gone are the balance...!!! Extra long spinning warm-ups made our heads spin like hell, poor YiWen had to hold on to the barre, another gal crossed my track & almost crashed into me, and I almost crashed into the mirrors...)
_ Work on postures and lines. Arm extensions, in particular. (I tell you, my lines were HORRIBLE!!! Those feet, I can't seems to ever get them right... *sobs*)
_ And again, don't look at feet! KEEP HEAD UP!!! (Unavoidable as I need to check on my feet which are often out of position... *sobbing even louder*)
_ Get a hang of the routines faster. At least same pace with the seniors. (The fact that I didn't cross this out is pretty much self-explanatory. *nearing breakdown* )
_ Don't get teased or scolded by Sifu. (Like I will never get bashings after all the mistakes and failures above?!! Fat chances! I wasn't the only one but still, that thought never helped one bit. Sorry I dissapointed you, Sifu.)
Yup, THAT CRAP was Week 6.
And yup, you've seen right, I had only 1 out of 7 crossed x out in my entire checklist.
And that one single thing was like, get heel protectors? How hard could that be?
*******
And very unlucky for us, there was a minor incident. The studio's power fuse was burnt midway through our lesson. When we were doing our centre point warm-ups to some music, suddenly the music went off and the whole place went black. T.T
So for the rest of the lesson, we had to dance in the "dark", without music too. It should be kinda romantic, if not for the heat that M'sia The Tropical Country is well known for. Man, we were perspiring mad thru the routines.
But still, that was no excuse for my failure. I should've worked harder. One thing, I didn't give in my fullest effort for that day, which is what I should be blamed for. I'm sorry, really sorry. Promise it won't happen again next time.
*******
When I went to get my heel protectors from Sifu, she sat on the floor helping me fit them in, when another gal asked her if she can have a pair too. Sifu said no, you hadn't had much acheivements yet. The gal was perplexed, why not? And I too was quizzical. So I asked her, huh?!! Then, do I? And she answered, well, a little!
I didn't know if she was joking or not. I couldn't see her face. Seriously I had always thought I was the worst in the entire class, since the rest of the students have at least more than one year of experience. Does Sifu really think that I had improved a little? I thought I was always a dissapointment. You may think, what's the big deal about such a mere comment? But you wouldn't know, how much it meant to me. You see, very rarely Sifu ever gives decent comments about everyone, and when she does, you sure should be real happy. Now you get me?
Neways, I know for sure that I'm still not up to standard yet. And looking from the way Week 6 went, I know that I'm not even close. Sifu used to advise me never to give what I'd learnt all back to her when I leave, and I'll hang on to that advise. I remember there was this other senior who told me the same thing, once you stop, you have to keep all da techniques persistent with you.. if not, you're gonna loose them someday!
*No worries, Jiyi will keep that in mind.*
Week 7 will be my last week there. I pray that it'll be much better. If not, I really won't be able to forgive myself.
Note to self: Have to work on the Rumba Roll that took me so long to figure out..*dummy me*
But for now, can I have some California Sushi Roll and Ebiko please??? Awww... I'm craving for you... scrumptilicious!!!!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
August Rush
Zoom! And hereby announcing the arrival of the 2nd week of August! Awww mann, why do time wanna past so fast huh? Tomorrow, well, today actually, will be my 2nd last lesson with Sifu. God knows when I can be back again. Awww...Nostalgic!
I'm so gonna miss them all.
The lessons which are a drill but enjoyable all the same, the studio which is almost comfy like home, the talkative students who are normally quite hyperactive but great dancers, the pretty-gentle-loving Sifu whose wit and quirk can never be challenged, her friendly husband who smiles all the time, equally friendly and cute Ah Nee Aunty who's most fun to be around with, the parquette floor which often have pieces of wood coming off and glued back on, the long tall mirrors which is often 'stained' by kid's fingerprints, the solid steel barre which acts as our trusted 'partner' when there aren't enough boys, the comfy coach with all those huggable little cushions...
Just so many things I won't forget there.
Why oh why shall I have to leave? But that's the way the story goes. Just as the many times I used to leave and ask this same question over and over again... However unlike those last times, this time, I'm not quite sure when I'll be back. You know the holidays in IMU... ain't really sufficient actually.
Guess I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed and hope it won't be that long a wait.
In the meantime... checklist for week 6!
_ Get my heel protectors!
_ Work on my confidence.
_ Work on those feet. Especially balancing.
_ Work on postures and lines. Arm extensions, in particular.
_ And again, don't look at feet! KEEP HEAD UP!!!
_ Get a hang of the routines faster. At least same pace with the seniors.
_ Don't get teased or scolded by Sifu.
Any hopes of getting them all crossed off ASAP?
Anyway, I still remember the theory---hush hush, don't rush!!!
So I'll just give in my best, and we'll see... ^_^
I'm so gonna miss them all.
The lessons which are a drill but enjoyable all the same, the studio which is almost comfy like home, the talkative students who are normally quite hyperactive but great dancers, the pretty-gentle-loving Sifu whose wit and quirk can never be challenged, her friendly husband who smiles all the time, equally friendly and cute Ah Nee Aunty who's most fun to be around with, the parquette floor which often have pieces of wood coming off and glued back on, the long tall mirrors which is often 'stained' by kid's fingerprints, the solid steel barre which acts as our trusted 'partner' when there aren't enough boys, the comfy coach with all those huggable little cushions...
Just so many things I won't forget there.
Why oh why shall I have to leave? But that's the way the story goes. Just as the many times I used to leave and ask this same question over and over again... However unlike those last times, this time, I'm not quite sure when I'll be back. You know the holidays in IMU... ain't really sufficient actually.
Guess I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed and hope it won't be that long a wait.
In the meantime... checklist for week 6!
_ Get my heel protectors!
_ Work on my confidence.
_ Work on those feet. Especially balancing.
_ Work on postures and lines. Arm extensions, in particular.
_ And again, don't look at feet! KEEP HEAD UP!!!
_ Get a hang of the routines faster. At least same pace with the seniors.
_ Don't get teased or scolded by Sifu.
Any hopes of getting them all crossed off ASAP?
Anyway, I still remember the theory---hush hush, don't rush!!!
So I'll just give in my best, and we'll see... ^_^
Monday, August 3, 2009
I wonder... and I've learnt
Even as a child I had been curious.
I used to wonder why the leaves are green, why the sky is blue.
Why the children can be so happy, why the adults can be so moody.
Why the kind old man next door always had a lot of visitors in his house, why the grumpy aunty down the street was always lonely.
And as I grow older, sometimes I wonder how this world came to be.
I wonder how God works, and how Satan works in this world.
I wonder how mankind on this earth, could be so different from each other.
And today. I'll talk about people. Yes, those class-A mammals/homo sapiens/complex beings with even complex mind/sinners... whatever you call them.
Throughout my 19 years of life, I've seen people. Lots and lots of people. Different people. And there are people I forgot, people I treasure, people who are worthy and unworthy. It might come out harsh, but still, UNWORTHY... what else could subtly describe that precisely? Perdón for my lack of vocabulary.
*******
I wonder how some people demand for respect when they themselves are not respecting others at all. Que ironia ven? Sadly funny, in a way. I always believe that respectable people will gain respect automatically. They don't even need to DEMAND for it if they proved themselves worthy.
The act itself is sometimes, as evil blow itself up in a pale parody of the human being, which only made us giggle like children at their foolish pomposity.
Why so?
Imprudente.
*******
I used to be sympathetic for outcasts, but I guess I gotta re-evaluate my notion. I'd came to see that there must be a reason to that. And very often, reasons that speak for themselves. Like there's this little mirror reflecting everyone's heart, if you take the time to read them, it's all pretty much self-explanatory.
~~~
Now I know why Sifu is so pretty. Her beauty comes from within. Reflected on that little mirror, I think. Brings radiance to her face.
And one thing, she never brags much.
Unlike some.
*******
When I was young, there was this counting song that every kindergarten kid knew by heart, "Ten Green Bottles"...
"So many!!!" my little cousin will say. Yeah, diez!!! It's all of your fingers together, kiddo!
That was then, you could when you're five years old.
But then again, now I'd seen some people who just never learnt to grow up. Lástima en ellos.
Dissapointing.
*******
Schadenfreude. Yes, haven't you met one before?
*******
Lesson learnt---Never to believe in anyone, except those who LOVE you. Not like, not close, not anything. Just love. Love that takes no account of sacrifices. Takes no account of anything.
And to be frank, there just ain't many out there.
One thing I'd say, life's lessons aren't normally enjoyable to learn. Unlike dance lessons. ^_^
*******
It's Monday again.
Yesterday's lesson was a drill. Yup, Sifu's back. No more chit-chatting or lazing around the barre. But I'm happy that Sifu's finally back.
Dumped our routine yesterday. Instead, we had warm-ups, that's what Sifu call them. I guess it's some new techniques she learnt from her 2-week China trip. Wow, and sure enough, some drilling it was!!! Techniques for cucuracha/hip movements, directions, centre point, Rhumba walk and all those spinning and twisting... continuous 10 minutes for each training. It was alright for the others, but imagine spinning for 10 minutes! We were stopping, bumping into each other and crossing tracks at 8 minutes. Were seeing stars and slumped to the floor at the end of the song.
So much for improving over the 2 weeks. Sifu was devasted. So it's the same dose of teasing, fired at almost everyone. Lolx.. at least, I wasn't the only one.
And we had a great time. Had great chats. Dance is a blessing. You are a blessing.
I think that for every bad that we had in our lives, we'll have good too.
God looks after His children. God gives us what is best for us.
God is fair. God is good. Amen!
And again, I've learnt.
I used to wonder why the leaves are green, why the sky is blue.
Why the children can be so happy, why the adults can be so moody.
Why the kind old man next door always had a lot of visitors in his house, why the grumpy aunty down the street was always lonely.
And as I grow older, sometimes I wonder how this world came to be.
I wonder how God works, and how Satan works in this world.
I wonder how mankind on this earth, could be so different from each other.
And today. I'll talk about people. Yes, those class-A mammals/homo sapiens/complex beings with even complex mind/sinners... whatever you call them.
Throughout my 19 years of life, I've seen people. Lots and lots of people. Different people. And there are people I forgot, people I treasure, people who are worthy and unworthy. It might come out harsh, but still, UNWORTHY... what else could subtly describe that precisely? Perdón for my lack of vocabulary.
*******
I wonder how some people demand for respect when they themselves are not respecting others at all. Que ironia ven? Sadly funny, in a way. I always believe that respectable people will gain respect automatically. They don't even need to DEMAND for it if they proved themselves worthy.
The act itself is sometimes, as evil blow itself up in a pale parody of the human being, which only made us giggle like children at their foolish pomposity.
Why so?
Imprudente.
*******
I used to be sympathetic for outcasts, but I guess I gotta re-evaluate my notion. I'd came to see that there must be a reason to that. And very often, reasons that speak for themselves. Like there's this little mirror reflecting everyone's heart, if you take the time to read them, it's all pretty much self-explanatory.
~~~
Now I know why Sifu is so pretty. Her beauty comes from within. Reflected on that little mirror, I think. Brings radiance to her face.
And one thing, she never brags much.
Unlike some.
*******
When I was young, there was this counting song that every kindergarten kid knew by heart, "Ten Green Bottles"...
"So many!!!" my little cousin will say. Yeah, diez!!! It's all of your fingers together, kiddo!
That was then, you could when you're five years old.
But then again, now I'd seen some people who just never learnt to grow up. Lástima en ellos.
Dissapointing.
*******
Schadenfreude. Yes, haven't you met one before?
*******
Lesson learnt---Never to believe in anyone, except those who LOVE you. Not like, not close, not anything. Just love. Love that takes no account of sacrifices. Takes no account of anything.
And to be frank, there just ain't many out there.
One thing I'd say, life's lessons aren't normally enjoyable to learn. Unlike dance lessons. ^_^
*******
It's Monday again.
Yesterday's lesson was a drill. Yup, Sifu's back. No more chit-chatting or lazing around the barre. But I'm happy that Sifu's finally back.
Dumped our routine yesterday. Instead, we had warm-ups, that's what Sifu call them. I guess it's some new techniques she learnt from her 2-week China trip. Wow, and sure enough, some drilling it was!!! Techniques for cucuracha/hip movements, directions, centre point, Rhumba walk and all those spinning and twisting... continuous 10 minutes for each training. It was alright for the others, but imagine spinning for 10 minutes! We were stopping, bumping into each other and crossing tracks at 8 minutes. Were seeing stars and slumped to the floor at the end of the song.
So much for improving over the 2 weeks. Sifu was devasted. So it's the same dose of teasing, fired at almost everyone. Lolx.. at least, I wasn't the only one.
And we had a great time. Had great chats. Dance is a blessing. You are a blessing.
I think that for every bad that we had in our lives, we'll have good too.
God looks after His children. God gives us what is best for us.
God is fair. God is good. Amen!
And again, I've learnt.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Checklist :
x Don't scream when performing the drop at the end of the routine.
(Yup, got tat pretty well done! I can even extend my left hand, turn my head and uhh... smile!)
x Don't get teased or scolded again today.
(Finally! But Sifu wasn't here so... can't be too optimistic yet.)
x Look!!!!! at your partner!!!
(Thanks Zili, you're a great partner!)
x Do the 180 degrees spin smoothly.
(Can still do it today. I even got straighter at my double spins!)
_ SMILE!!! Don't look like everyone owes you money!
(Wasn't satisfied with my smile, cuz it was more like tensed curl of my lips, especially during the pair by pair accessment... T.T)
_ Move more steadily and confidently, don't sway and swagger.
(Well, guess I was steadier this time, but still, there's room for improvement, so I'll KIV for this part...)
_ Don't look at feet!!! KEEP HEAD UP!!!
(Better than last time. But I did too occasionally looked down, so I gotta be strict to myself, and ban crossing this out until I TOTALLY DID NOT look down unnecessarily.)
Sifu isn't back yet today. She'll be away for 2 weeks, Ah Nee aunty told me. Aww... I miss her. Ah Nee aunty is great too, but I still love Sifu the most. I won't mind listening ONCE to "Love Song Of XiZhang" if only she could be back.
But guess I could only wait till next week to see her again.
In the meantime, I'll strive to make the last 3 cuts of my checklist. And for more to come next week. Think I'll give myself till next Sunday to perfect my split.
Gonna be off to sleep now. Gruelling starts tomorrow. Gotta be ready for the pain... ^_^
(Yup, got tat pretty well done! I can even extend my left hand, turn my head and uhh... smile!)
x Don't get teased or scolded again today.
(Finally! But Sifu wasn't here so... can't be too optimistic yet.)
x Look!!!!! at your partner!!!
(Thanks Zili, you're a great partner!)
x Do the 180 degrees spin smoothly.
(Can still do it today. I even got straighter at my double spins!)
_ SMILE!!! Don't look like everyone owes you money!
(Wasn't satisfied with my smile, cuz it was more like tensed curl of my lips, especially during the pair by pair accessment... T.T)
_ Move more steadily and confidently, don't sway and swagger.
(Well, guess I was steadier this time, but still, there's room for improvement, so I'll KIV for this part...)
_ Don't look at feet!!! KEEP HEAD UP!!!
(Better than last time. But I did too occasionally looked down, so I gotta be strict to myself, and ban crossing this out until I TOTALLY DID NOT look down unnecessarily.)
Sifu isn't back yet today. She'll be away for 2 weeks, Ah Nee aunty told me. Aww... I miss her. Ah Nee aunty is great too, but I still love Sifu the most. I won't mind listening ONCE to "Love Song Of XiZhang" if only she could be back.
But guess I could only wait till next week to see her again.
In the meantime, I'll strive to make the last 3 cuts of my checklist. And for more to come next week. Think I'll give myself till next Sunday to perfect my split.
Gonna be off to sleep now. Gruelling starts tomorrow. Gotta be ready for the pain... ^_^
Como Ama Una Mujer
Cuando te encuentras conmigo a solas
Y tengo tanto para decirte
en lo que quieras yo voy a seguirte
*No hablemos nada oye el silencio
es el lenguaje de nuestros cuerpos
Y a veces pienso que apareciste
para mostrarme que el amor existe*
Tu, todo tu
Siempre tu
Todo tu.
en lo que quieras yo voy a seguirte
*No hablemos nada oye el silencio
es el lenguaje de nuestros cuerpos
Y a veces pienso que apareciste
para mostrarme que el amor existe*
Tu, todo tu
Siempre tu
Todo tu.
On a side note, I bet this'll gotta make a nice choreograph...!
*Let nothing be heard, the silence
is the language of our bodies;
And sometimes I think you appear,
to show me that love exists.*
is the language of our bodies;
And sometimes I think you appear,
to show me that love exists.*
Captivating, really captivating. And I mean, everything. Guess what's on my playlist? All-time favs -Tu and Como Ama Una Mujer by none other than, mi esposa. Mi amada esposa.
Oh Jenny, Jenny... why could you always captivate my heart?
*Quizas porque tan solo he sido unaQue ha sido enamorada de la luna
Tan solo eso ha sido mi pecado
El de seguir mi corazon a todos lados
Seguir mi loco corazon a todos lados
Y he amado como ama una mujer
Que ve en su hombre el paraiso...*
Beautiful. It's beautiful. It touches the depths of my soul. I wonder if I had gotten much more sentimental than I already was these days, but really, which other dummy cries watching SYTYCD? I guess it's only me.
Me who cries like a woman.
Me who loves like a woman.
Well, I'm (going-to-be-not-yet-but-soon) a woman.
*Maybe because I had been so alone,
Whom had only been in love with the moon;
So was my only sin
to follow my heart to all directions,
To follow my crazy heart everywhere.
And I loved like how a woman loves,
who sees paradise in her man...*
Whom had only been in love with the moon;
So was my only sin
to follow my heart to all directions,
To follow my crazy heart everywhere.
And I loved like how a woman loves,
who sees paradise in her man...*
So you got what I mean by beautiful?
*******
Neways, updates. I've been catching up with SYTYCD Season 5 lately. There's so much emotion going on in the show!!! It's like the nicest production I've ever watched, seriously. There's dance, there's out-of-this-world skills and talents, there's love, there's passion, there's drama, there's lessons and values...
I see people. Lots and lots of people. Different people. Black people, white people, growing people, never-give-up people, rude people, cannot-take-critism people, guys with long hair, gals with shaved heads, big boys who cries, young ladies who stick together...
Inspiring. Sat watching with gaping mouth at what a dancer really is.
Back to my feet, I know I still have a long way to go. Maybe never gonna make it like them. Maybe never gonna touch the sky. I started late, and one mistake is able to last forever. But you see, the best is not about reaching the heights, it's about still hanging on even though you know you might never gonna reach it.
"I do not try to dance better than anyone else. I only try to dance better than myself." ~ Mikhail Baryshnikov
And so shall I. ^_^
*******
Gotta go. Dance class starting in an hour's time, and I don't wanna be late. Hope Sifu's already back from China. And hope she wouldn't play that "Love Song Of XiZhang" for us to dance to today. Believe me, it's the worst song to go with Rhumba. =.=
Checklist for today:
x Don't scream when performing the drop at the end of the routine.
_ Don't get teased or scolded again today.
_ Look!!!!! at your partner!!! (if you were assigned one today)
x Do the 180 degrees spin smoothly.
_ SMILE!!! Don't look like everyone owes you money!
_ Move more steadily and confidently, don't sway and swagger.
_ Don't look at feet!!! KEEP HEAD UP!!!
Wish I can check the rest off ASAP. Pray for me.
P/S: Cariño, mi ángel de la guarda, te extraño mucho mucho.
La tuya.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
A Little Before Goodnight
So, it's like the ???th week after the day I left INTEC. Seriously I have no idea. Was it the 3rd? Or 4th?
Totally lost track of time. Externals seems like centuries ago. FINE!!! Not that I wanted to be constantly reminded about it too. Let it hibernate with the dinosaurs, as far as I'm concerned. It's almost as scary as dinos anyway, well, on second thought, SCARIER.
Guess I'd better enjoy my life to the fullest before it gets miserable... *which I prayed hard it won't*
movies, MOVIES, mov-iiieeeees!!!!
I'd been watching oh-so-many movies, reality shows, TVB dramas... these days.
Mornings are for Berniceeeeee, JLOooooo... oh my wifey(s)...!!!
Afternoons are for SYTYCD season 5 - *who's going to be America's next favourite dancer?* ( C'mon get your tickets, you're going to VEGASSSSSSS!!!!!!)
It gets me really hyped too, seeing people getting hyped over all the VEGAS-hoo-hah. But mom was like :"Why so hyped? It's not YOU who's going to Vegas!"
(yeah, I know but, talk about slapping cold water on your face!)
So since I'm not going to Vegas, nights are for shopping-online-skyping-eating supper-daydreaming-reading-eating junk food-sleeping..... zzz...zzzZZZZ
Actually I should be blogging about my lovely Sarawak trip, but I find it quite a tremendous work to do for now, so I guess I'll leave it for another post...okie? Sorry folks!
But here's an insight --- It'll mostly be about yummy yummy food, cheap cheap stuff and nice, friendly people!!!
So I'll talk about the anniversary dinner and dance instead. It's just as amazing as last year's. I guess better. The senior students are getting better and better over the year. (Despite all the pre-performance hassle; like someone forgetting to bring costumes, forgetting what costume they were supposed to wear or someone losing his shoes...well, kids are kids.) I guess Sifu will surely be proud of them. I am too.
And the costumes are ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC this year!!! So shimmery and colourful!!! Beads, sequins, furs, feathers... you name it, they have it. I was the one assigned to be in charge of the costumes, so I get to have a good look and touch of them. ^_^
Sifu's designs and handwork are getting more and more amazing. Yup, all the costumes are made/co-made by her, so she's like dancer-teacher-designer-children caretaker... Well, I can only say... WOW!!!
Watching people dance is one thing, dancing myself is another. One is pure enjoyment, the other is enjoying while ahem, struggling. Why the struggle? It's to get these rusty old bones back on track. That's the thing about discontinuous dancing, you get rusty and you gotta work it all over again from square one.
Moreover, I'm now in some advanced class?!!! Well, initially I wasn't supposed to be in that class. But under some circumstances which are too complicated for me to describe, I ended up in the uh... advanced class, with the seniors who are oh-so-pro, and routines that I'd never learnt before... *Oh, I feel darn inferior!!! and useless... sob...*
Well, I know I need a lot of hard work to keep up with them. And hard work shall it be. I don't know how many times had I said this, but really, I won't give up. Why should I? When Sifu herself didn't give up on me. Only that she often laugh and tease me... bu bu bu... T.T
Gotta get better next lesson. I don't want to be FREQUENTLY teased again, although I'm not the only one who got teased... Lolx.. typical of Sifu. It's her way of communicating with us, lolx... cute!
Time to say bubie for now!!! I'll leave you with...
Totally lost track of time. Externals seems like centuries ago. FINE!!! Not that I wanted to be constantly reminded about it too. Let it hibernate with the dinosaurs, as far as I'm concerned. It's almost as scary as dinos anyway, well, on second thought, SCARIER.
Guess I'd better enjoy my life to the fullest before it gets miserable... *which I prayed hard it won't*
movies, MOVIES, mov-iiieeeees!!!!
I'd been watching oh-so-many movies, reality shows, TVB dramas... these days.
Mornings are for Berniceeeeee, JLOooooo... oh my wifey(s)...!!!
Afternoons are for SYTYCD season 5 - *who's going to be America's next favourite dancer?* ( C'mon get your tickets, you're going to VEGASSSSSSS!!!!!!)
It gets me really hyped too, seeing people getting hyped over all the VEGAS-hoo-hah. But mom was like :"Why so hyped? It's not YOU who's going to Vegas!"
(yeah, I know but, talk about slapping cold water on your face!)
So since I'm not going to Vegas, nights are for shopping-online-skyping-eating supper-daydreaming-reading-eating junk food-sleeping..... zzz...zzzZZZZ
Actually I should be blogging about my lovely Sarawak trip, but I find it quite a tremendous work to do for now, so I guess I'll leave it for another post...okie? Sorry folks!
But here's an insight --- It'll mostly be about yummy yummy food, cheap cheap stuff and nice, friendly people!!!
So I'll talk about the anniversary dinner and dance instead. It's just as amazing as last year's. I guess better. The senior students are getting better and better over the year. (Despite all the pre-performance hassle; like someone forgetting to bring costumes, forgetting what costume they were supposed to wear or someone losing his shoes...well, kids are kids.) I guess Sifu will surely be proud of them. I am too.
And the costumes are ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC this year!!! So shimmery and colourful!!! Beads, sequins, furs, feathers... you name it, they have it. I was the one assigned to be in charge of the costumes, so I get to have a good look and touch of them. ^_^
Sifu's designs and handwork are getting more and more amazing. Yup, all the costumes are made/co-made by her, so she's like dancer-teacher-designer-children caretaker... Well, I can only say... WOW!!!
Watching people dance is one thing, dancing myself is another. One is pure enjoyment, the other is enjoying while ahem, struggling. Why the struggle? It's to get these rusty old bones back on track. That's the thing about discontinuous dancing, you get rusty and you gotta work it all over again from square one.
Moreover, I'm now in some advanced class?!!! Well, initially I wasn't supposed to be in that class. But under some circumstances which are too complicated for me to describe, I ended up in the uh... advanced class, with the seniors who are oh-so-pro, and routines that I'd never learnt before... *Oh, I feel darn inferior!!! and useless... sob...*
Well, I know I need a lot of hard work to keep up with them. And hard work shall it be. I don't know how many times had I said this, but really, I won't give up. Why should I? When Sifu herself didn't give up on me. Only that she often laugh and tease me... bu bu bu... T.T
Gotta get better next lesson. I don't want to be FREQUENTLY teased again, although I'm not the only one who got teased... Lolx.. typical of Sifu. It's her way of communicating with us, lolx... cute!
Time to say bubie for now!!! I'll leave you with...
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Forever And Always
It's 2 am now.
2 more papers to go;
my batteries are running low.
2 more papers to go;
my batteries are running low.
It's draining all of me...
You seems really tired lately.
I guess your batteries are running low too.
I'll drain all the energy I have left for you, if it could lift your spirits up again...
Went dancing again today. Alone, as always. This might be the last time I'll ever dance in Akasia's badminton hall.
I'm gonna miss it a lot when I leave.
Gonna miss the tall row of mirrors, smooth grey floor and carpeted little stage at the corner.
I stayed there for more than 2 hours, repeating routine after routine. It's strange that they didn't tire me out today. Maybe I was just too absorbed, it even made me forget how weary I am, until much later anyway.
It's a good thing no one's there playing badminton, it's always like this during exam period. I could have the whole hall all to myself. ^_^
You told me most of the Blackpool dancers are married couples. Yea typical. But I kinda find it really sweet and romantic.
I believe that dancing do cultivate love.
Just as I always believe that dances will only come to life if there is love.
Taylor Swift's "Forever And Always" is oh-so-heartbreaking.
Apparently it was the song she wrote after her painful breakup with Joe Jonas. (according to the press)
Sound like she'll never believe in forever and always anymore.
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby
Now I see.
Some broken-hearted people write songs.
Some broken-hearted people cry.
And some broken-hearted people bite themselves...
So I hugged on tighter.
I wish I could go back to the dance again. And make it last forever.
Back to the days of blue sweater and little black skirt.
Wet pants under the little fragile umbrella. And yet big enough smiles. Rainbow smiles.
*lolx... I'm so random...*
I guess your batteries are running low too.
I'll drain all the energy I have left for you, if it could lift your spirits up again...
Went dancing again today. Alone, as always. This might be the last time I'll ever dance in Akasia's badminton hall.
I'm gonna miss it a lot when I leave.
Gonna miss the tall row of mirrors, smooth grey floor and carpeted little stage at the corner.
It's the place that I used to go, seeking solace.
The next best thing I'd found here.
The next best thing I'd found here.
I stayed there for more than 2 hours, repeating routine after routine. It's strange that they didn't tire me out today. Maybe I was just too absorbed, it even made me forget how weary I am, until much later anyway.
It's a good thing no one's there playing badminton, it's always like this during exam period. I could have the whole hall all to myself. ^_^
My personal dance studio for the very last time.
You told me most of the Blackpool dancers are married couples. Yea typical. But I kinda find it really sweet and romantic.
I believe that dancing do cultivate love.
Just as I always believe that dances will only come to life if there is love.
How nice. Husband and wife, with the same passion and aim.
Taylor Swift's "Forever And Always" is oh-so-heartbreaking.
Apparently it was the song she wrote after her painful breakup with Joe Jonas. (according to the press)
Sound like she'll never believe in forever and always anymore.
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'Cause I was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby
Now I see.
Some broken-hearted people write songs.
Some broken-hearted people cry.
And some broken-hearted people bite themselves...
No they ain't mad. Just hurt...
I love "The Best Day". It's pure and sweet. And inspiring. A song she wrote for her mum. At least not all her songs are about boys.. lolx.And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today
One day, I'll write a song for you too, mum.
It's 2 am. I'm holding Yaw Yaw in my arms. It's warmer with him here. Like part of your warmth is here with me, even when you are thousands of miles away.So I hugged on tighter.
I pray that you are warm and snug too,
sleeping peacefully in your bed through the autumn night.
sleeping peacefully in your bed through the autumn night.
I wish I could go back to the dance again. And make it last forever.
Back to the days of blue sweater and little black skirt.
Wet pants under the little fragile umbrella. And yet big enough smiles. Rainbow smiles.
*lolx... I'm so random...*
Some people do still believe in forever and always -
Dummy me. ^_^
Don't ask me why I do. I just do.
My love for you could last forever and always...
Dummy me. ^_^
Don't ask me why I do. I just do.
My love for you could last forever and always...
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Was... Is...
华文，好久没用了。都快要忘记怎么写了。唉唉……
多久，没有写周记了。曾经很坚持过，每每写得手也发痛。
那些早已过去的日子。就这么一年又一年了。
师父说得对，一年真的可以改变很多东西。一年那么长，而人啊，往往又那么善变。
有些东西都已好久没有提起。
不再了，便不是了。没关系，现在都已不再重要了。其实也许还是没有改变的，只是我在变。
有些感觉都已变质。
有时因为懂了太多； 也是因为懂得太少。可又有谁没有年轻单纯愚昧过呢？
现在终也明白，很多人事物，原来放下了，真的是退一步海阔天空。
放下了，心如止水。
原来早已逃开了枷锁。因为心有了免疫呀。
我觉得我长大了。很庆幸我长大了。
多久，没有写周记了。曾经很坚持过，每每写得手也发痛。
那些早已过去的日子。就这么一年又一年了。
师父说得对，一年真的可以改变很多东西。一年那么长，而人啊，往往又那么善变。
有些东西都已好久没有提起。
不再了，便不是了。没关系，现在都已不再重要了。其实也许还是没有改变的，只是我在变。
有些感觉都已变质。
有时因为懂了太多； 也是因为懂得太少。可又有谁没有年轻单纯愚昧过呢？
现在终也明白，很多人事物，原来放下了，真的是退一步海阔天空。
放下了，心如止水。
原来早已逃开了枷锁。因为心有了免疫呀。
我觉得我长大了。很庆幸我长大了。
I was a dreamer, but now I keep my feet back on the ground again...
我不会再回头看。只有往前望。我那珍贵的有你手心珍而重之； 挽扶我的手有亲爱的父。若果幸福都已来了，我怎还需惧怕？
我前方还有好多好多未来。一定还有好多好多美好。
那么……别了, 往事。
我不会再回头看。只有往前望。我那珍贵的有你手心珍而重之； 挽扶我的手有亲爱的父。若果幸福都已来了，我怎还需惧怕？
我前方还有好多好多未来。一定还有好多好多美好。
那么……别了, 往事。
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Angels and Fairies
I tell you, I'm so jobless. Shouldn't be, since I'm not on vacation or watsoever now, I'm on a study week...OMG, STUDY WEEK!!! And I'm more like holiday-ing...
Been wondering what level I am actually in. To be frank, I have no idea about it. Well, it's understandable though actually, cause it's not like I have any systematic syllabus to stick to in my studio.
But I'd pretty much figured out that I'm Bronze. Maybe not silver yet, though I do know just a little of the syllabus in Silver. Not beginner's either... *I hope...no I'm not that noob...>.<*
And again, somewhere caught in between... Wonder why is it always like this???
Geee, why am I here wondering what level I am in, when the only level I have to worry about now is my A-LEVELS!!!
Loco loco loco...!!! Think I'm going loco... T.T
*Michael Wentink and Beata were awesome in their WSSDF 2002 & WSSDF 2004 Samba!!!*
*Michael wore rugged jeans for WSSDF 2004!!! (=.=) but I ADORE Beata's colourful sleeves, made her look like some flower fairy!!! *
Beata always have real great costumes...
Btw, love Declan!!!
*All the sweet honey from above, pour it all over me sweet love...*
*sometimes I wish I were an angel, sometimes I wish I were you...*
*love of my life, don't leave me, you've taken my heart, and now you desert me...*
*would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven...*
And to you,
Been wondering what level I am actually in. To be frank, I have no idea about it. Well, it's understandable though actually, cause it's not like I have any systematic syllabus to stick to in my studio.
But I'd pretty much figured out that I'm Bronze. Maybe not silver yet, though I do know just a little of the syllabus in Silver. Not beginner's either... *I hope...no I'm not that noob...>.<*
And again, somewhere caught in between... Wonder why is it always like this???
Geee, why am I here wondering what level I am in, when the only level I have to worry about now is my A-LEVELS!!!
Loco loco loco...!!! Think I'm going loco... T.T
*Michael Wentink and Beata were awesome in their WSSDF 2002 & WSSDF 2004 Samba!!!*
*Michael wore rugged jeans for WSSDF 2004!!! (=.=) but I ADORE Beata's colourful sleeves, made her look like some flower fairy!!! *
Beata always have real great costumes...
Here's the only photo of the show that I found...
Btw, love Declan!!!
*All the sweet honey from above, pour it all over me sweet love...*
*sometimes I wish I were an angel, sometimes I wish I were you...*
*love of my life, don't leave me, you've taken my heart, and now you desert me...*
*would you know my name, if I saw you in heaven...*
And to you,
Standing in the light of your Halo, I got my angel now... ^_^
Sunday, May 17, 2009
The same passion
Been such a long time I hadn't blogged.
Not that I didn't have the time. I practically spent most of my time online, and procrastinating; despite the exams going on full steam...
*should slap myself for that >.<*
But the Blackpool, Russia Open, Grand Slam, WSS Festival... were all soooooo exciting I couldn't take my eyes off them. Ended up spending a few hours every night just watching with mouth gaping at Carmen Vincelj & Bryan Watson, Yulia & Ricardo Cocchi, Michael Wentink & Beata...etc... executing their excellent footwork on the Floor... *was practically drooling OMG*
It's always an amazing thing streaming latin dance videos. I do watch other dance comps too, other than the Professional's category. From Bronze to Amateur; Junior to Senior... they never fail to captivate me.
The same dances; Cha Cha, Rumba, Samba, Paso Doble and Jive; but so very different dancers.
Some dancers are dramatic and more expressive, like Carmen.
Some dancers are downright HOT, like Yulia.
Some dancers are really skillful, like Joanne and Beata.
Some dancers have lightning speed, like Michael and Ricardo.
Some male dancers have excellent hips movements, like Bryan.
And more,
Some people acknowledge the spectators humbly; some acknowledge them pridefully.
Some male dancers present their partners to the applausing crowd; some steal her limelight.
Some dancers have costumes that are so lovely I wish I could have them too; some dancers wear costumes that made me laugh.
Some people are near perfect, some people stumble.
But I know that all the dancers were trying their best as they presented their dances.
Sometimes I wonder how much effort they put into their practise before the moment of glam and glory. I guess all of them did make quite a lot.
And sometimes I wonder how would I look like if I were ever in a dance comp. What would I wear, who would I dance with...
*Hope I won't be one of those who stumble and drop out >.<*
One thing I know, I'll surely be happy. It's always my dream, my passion.
I'll surely do my best too. Just like everyone else did. ^_^
*yeah, I'm still striving hard for my dream... I've only been learning discontinuously for 4 months to be exact, I know I still got a long way to go, but I'm not gonna give up. *
So, the dancers might have different routines, different costumes, different level of skills, come from different countries, different skin colour, some might win, some might lose, some are young, some are older, some are confident, some are nervous, some are beginners, some are professionals.....
But one thing I know about all the thousands of dancers out of the hundreds of dance comp videos I'd streamed --- they all have the same passion towards latin dancing, which was what brought them there in the very first place.
*A big salute for all the dance lovers out there!!! ^_^*
Okay, enough of analysing dance comps I watched, gotta get back to nerding... =.=
Biology W2, Statistics 1 and Chemistry Practical 6A next week.
Wish me luck!!!
Not that I didn't have the time. I practically spent most of my time online, and procrastinating; despite the exams going on full steam...
*should slap myself for that >.<*
But the Blackpool, Russia Open, Grand Slam, WSS Festival... were all soooooo exciting I couldn't take my eyes off them. Ended up spending a few hours every night just watching with mouth gaping at Carmen Vincelj & Bryan Watson, Yulia & Ricardo Cocchi, Michael Wentink & Beata...etc... executing their excellent footwork on the Floor... *was practically drooling OMG*
It's always an amazing thing streaming latin dance videos. I do watch other dance comps too, other than the Professional's category. From Bronze to Amateur; Junior to Senior... they never fail to captivate me.
The same dances; Cha Cha, Rumba, Samba, Paso Doble and Jive; but so very different dancers.
Some dancers are dramatic and more expressive, like Carmen.
Some dancers are downright HOT, like Yulia.
Some dancers are really skillful, like Joanne and Beata.
Some dancers have lightning speed, like Michael and Ricardo.
Some male dancers have excellent hips movements, like Bryan.
And more,
Some people acknowledge the spectators humbly; some acknowledge them pridefully.
Some male dancers present their partners to the applausing crowd; some steal her limelight.
Some dancers have costumes that are so lovely I wish I could have them too; some dancers wear costumes that made me laugh.
Some people are near perfect, some people stumble.
But I know that all the dancers were trying their best as they presented their dances.
Sometimes I wonder how much effort they put into their practise before the moment of glam and glory. I guess all of them did make quite a lot.
And sometimes I wonder how would I look like if I were ever in a dance comp. What would I wear, who would I dance with...
*Hope I won't be one of those who stumble and drop out >.<*
One thing I know, I'll surely be happy. It's always my dream, my passion.
I'll surely do my best too. Just like everyone else did. ^_^
*yeah, I'm still striving hard for my dream... I've only been learning discontinuously for 4 months to be exact, I know I still got a long way to go, but I'm not gonna give up. *
So, the dancers might have different routines, different costumes, different level of skills, come from different countries, different skin colour, some might win, some might lose, some are young, some are older, some are confident, some are nervous, some are beginners, some are professionals.....
But one thing I know about all the thousands of dancers out of the hundreds of dance comp videos I'd streamed --- they all have the same passion towards latin dancing, which was what brought them there in the very first place.
*A big salute for all the dance lovers out there!!! ^_^*
Okay, enough of analysing dance comps I watched, gotta get back to nerding... =.=
Biology W2, Statistics 1 and Chemistry Practical 6A next week.
Wish me luck!!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Fragments of thoughts...
I hate smokers. But there are lots of them around. Puffing away at Pak Li. Bothering me, didn't stay there long.
No need to pity them smokers if they got lung cancer... >.<
Akasia line was down for 3 days. *unbearable* Luckily now it's back. So i'mma continue blogging. ^_^
I'm jobless.
It's too hot here. I can't pay attention to nerding. Interview's coming. And I haven't really done anything.
*what to wear, what to wear?* Haha... I told you I am jobless...
Last week, I lost my umbrella, was left in the wet rain.
Drenched.
Dripping love...
Streaming Blackpool Finals in Youtube. Yulia's hot & Carmen's great. Excelente!
Jive was amazingly fast.. Such speed... *wow*
Comps at the end of this year? ^__^ Hopefully.
Crossing my fingers and praying hard.
And now alone in the silence of the night, lost in silent thoughts...
42-day Cruise... Cherry Blossom Festival...
How interesting! Woulda love it so, if only it could come true.
I'll be waiting... Bearing hopes and dreams of mine ......
Good night, carino.
No need to pity them smokers if they got lung cancer... >.<
Akasia line was down for 3 days. *unbearable* Luckily now it's back. So i'mma continue blogging. ^_^
I'm jobless.
It's too hot here. I can't pay attention to nerding. Interview's coming. And I haven't really done anything.
*what to wear, what to wear?* Haha... I told you I am jobless...
Last week, I lost my umbrella, was left in the wet rain.
Drenched.
Dripping love...
Streaming Blackpool Finals in Youtube. Yulia's hot & Carmen's great. Excelente!
Jive was amazingly fast.. Such speed... *wow*
I hope someday I could be like them...
*even half like them is enough...>.<*
*even half like them is enough...>.<*
Comps at the end of this year? ^__^ Hopefully.
Crossing my fingers and praying hard.
And now alone in the silence of the night, lost in silent thoughts...
42-day Cruise... Cherry Blossom Festival...
How interesting! Woulda love it so, if only it could come true.
And London and Paris and Barcelona and Las Vegas and Genting Highlands...
I'll be waiting... Bearing hopes and dreams of mine ......
4511 - 3197
Good night, carino.
I'm sure you are asleep by now. *grins*
Sleep tight...
Sleep tight...
Monday, April 20, 2009
What are people going to do?
Using both positive and negative characteristics, describe what six people are going to do and what they are doing: a woman, a man, a girl, a boy, you and me. Ex. The man is going to buy a car. The woman is not buying flowers.
El hombre va a viajar en el automóvil. No va a caminar. No va a ir en la bicicleta tambien.
La mujer y la niña están en la mesa. La mujer va a comer, no está comiendo. Pero la niña no va a comer, está satisfecha.
El niño no va a jugar, está enfermo. Así que el está durmiendo en la cama.
Tengo el cabello corto ahora. Espero tener el cabello largo en el futuro.
¿Qué vas a hacer? Voy a sentarme en el sofá. No voy a correr, estoy cansada.
¿Qué va a hacer ella? Ella va a comprar un libro y leerlo en la mesa marrón.
Te voy a subir por la escalera. No estás parado en la escalera.
¿Qué va a hacer él? El va a comprar las flores rojas en la caja por el esposo. El espera el esposo esta feliz.
No te voy a escribir sobre la mesa, voy a leer un periódico en la silla.
*Seeking help from Pro people again!!! Anyone can review for me? You who just finished your Spanish test... can help help? Thanks a lotta ya! *
Jiyi is working hard on her Spanish...
Y bailar tambien!!!
Y bailar tambien!!!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
This Masquerade
I'd always love masquerades. They sound really mysteriously exciting for me. Wonder if I could ever have the chance to attend one...? *dreaming of the 'Black & White Ball' in Another Cinderella's Story... ^_^ *
Si, I'm currently obsessed with yet another Carpenters' song, other than 'I Need To Be In Love'... *which is already playing in my head for the past few days... lolx...*
I can say that Karen's got the MOST WONDERFUL VOICE EVER ON EARTH!!! The best voice I've ever heard so far. No wonder people describe her voice as "liquid velvet"... It's so soothing it made me cry. *Seriously...*
Ann Murray's quite close to hers, but I still prefer Karen. Maybe coz of her songs, but I do love Murray's Broken Hearted Me...
Oh btw, if you guys haven't figured out yet, I LOVE OLDIES..
Are we really happy with
This lonely game we play
Looking for the right words to say
Searching but not finding
Understanding anyway
We're lost in this masquerade
Both afraid to say we're just too far away
From being close together from the start
We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We're lost inside this lonely game we play
throughts of leaving disappear
Each time I see your eyes
And no matter how hard I try
To understand the reason
Why we carry on this way
And we're lost in this masquerade
We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We're lost inside this lonely game we play
We're lost in a masquerade
This lonely game we play
Looking for the right words to say
Searching but not finding
Understanding anyway
We're lost in this masquerade
Both afraid to say we're just too far away
From being close together from the start
We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We're lost inside this lonely game we play
throughts of leaving disappear
Each time I see your eyes
And no matter how hard I try
To understand the reason
Why we carry on this way
And we're lost in this masquerade
We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We're lost inside this lonely game we play
We're lost in a masquerade
Why oh why would you die, Karen?
It's such a pity for such beautiful voice...
*sheds tears*
Monday, April 6, 2009
Viva La Español !!!
Sí. My Spanish is pretty much alive again, after it's deep slumber for like, how many months?
(though self-learning is slow as a snail... and my Spanish is still at the stage of like, standard 1 or 2 English?! Sigh, sigh, sigh... ) *Been working on it... Gotta have patience!*
Well, at least I can write simple 50 words paragraphs decribing people, things, what people are doing etc... and err, simple self-introduction... anyway, I'm loving it all the same!!!
Me encanta, me encanta!
Yes, I have a thing for Spanish. I actually love the languages. Spanish, Chinese, English...
I'm more of a language person I suppose, which explains why I can still get into the top positions during secondary school even with not-so-good results (Awww man, I can barely scrape an A2) in my Add Maths (urgh...) and Chemistry (Double urgh...).
Too bad these are like the 2 out of 3 core subjects I'm taking now in A-Levels...
*Yea yea yea, great luck! *
Sigh, guess I'll just have to work extra hard on them. Gotta tackle them, tackle them. Thank God at least Biology lets me breathe a little... ~Ahhh~
Which reminds me; OMG !!! Externals coming in 1 MONTH'S TIME !!!
Neways, before I get back to nerding, let me practise a little on my Spanish... ^_^
(though self-learning is slow as a snail... and my Spanish is still at the stage of like, standard 1 or 2 English?! Sigh, sigh, sigh... ) *Been working on it... Gotta have patience!*
Well, at least I can write simple 50 words paragraphs decribing people, things, what people are doing etc... and err, simple self-introduction... anyway, I'm loving it all the same!!!
Me encanta, me encanta!
Yes, I have a thing for Spanish. I actually love the languages. Spanish, Chinese, English...
I'm more of a language person I suppose, which explains why I can still get into the top positions during secondary school even with not-so-good results (Awww man, I can barely scrape an A2) in my Add Maths (urgh...) and Chemistry (Double urgh...).
Too bad these are like the 2 out of 3 core subjects I'm taking now in A-Levels...
*Yea yea yea, great luck! *
Sigh, guess I'll just have to work extra hard on them. Gotta tackle them, tackle them. Thank God at least Biology lets me breathe a little... ~Ahhh~
Which reminds me; OMG !!! Externals coming in 1 MONTH'S TIME !!!
OMG OMG OMG... I'm always chasing after time...
Neways, before I get back to nerding, let me practise a little on my Spanish... ^_^
Exercise 1 :
Using both positive and negative characteristics, describe what six people are doing:
La mujer está durmiendo en la cama morada. No está sentado en el sofá rojo. El hombre está comiendo la comida en la mesa marrón. No está comiendo los dulces sobre la caja blanca. Las niñas están jugando sobre la cama anaranjada. No están corriendo. El niño está bebiendo en la silla. No está sentado en el sofá. Las flores son moradas y están sobre la mesa verde, no sobre la cama negra. Él no está caminando, está parado. No estoy sonriendo. Estoy llorando. Estoy leyendo un libro en la silla. No estoy escribiendo con bolígrafo en la mesa.
To all pro people out there, please review for me if you all have the time!
Gracias in advance!
Gracias in advance!
Friday, March 27, 2009
It's all coming back to me...
It's Jive again. After for what seems like years.
These rusty moves. These harden bones.
It had been too long.
Brushed the dust off my dear shoes... and my dream.
The kicks, the spins and the swivels.
The music, the mood and the liveliness.
It's all coming back to me now.
Been dancing for the past few days. All alone.
Not that I could find anyone to dance with me here.
People looked at me weirdly,
but I'm not gonna care about them.
Focus work. Never giving up.
Looking waiting, for that one chance to come by.
Not forgetting to pray hard to dear Father who always listens.
He is the one who understands me most.
You too.
Just a little extra for Samba.
Same old routines,
renewed energy.
These rusty moves. These harden bones.
It had been too long.
Brushed the dust off my dear shoes... and my dream.
I'm back. And ready to strive...
The kicks, the spins and the swivels.
The music, the mood and the liveliness.
It's all coming back to me now.
But still, I didn't do well, enough.
Been dancing for the past few days. All alone.
Not that I could find anyone to dance with me here.
People looked at me weirdly,
but I'm not gonna care about them.
This is my world, they wouldn't understand.
Focus work. Never giving up.
Looking waiting, for that one chance to come by.
Not forgetting to pray hard to dear Father who always listens.
He is the one who understands me most.
You too.
Just a little extra for Samba.
Same old routines,
renewed energy.
I'm going to make it someday.
Am still waiting and praying.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
And I wish I could dance again...
Been ages this gurl hadn't posted any 'this-is-my-life' entries up to her blogger, so she'll might as well write one for all the dear readers outta there who might be wondering if she is still alive or not... lolx... jk jk... ^_^
Yupz, I'm very much alive and active.
Thanks for your concerns.
This is the 2nd last day of my mid-sem break *cries out loud* so I'll just sum up on all the procrastinating and unproductive life of the past week. >.< (Am not going to mention about the previous 2 weeks when I was entrapped in a jail of Nelsons, notes and pyq... Each day waking up and being dragged out of jail to undergo trial after trial in an excruciatingly cold chamber before being sent back to the lonely jail again, awaiting and dreading the trials to face the next day... *shivers* )
Back to the story.
The best way to start an unproductive lifestyle is to SLEEP A LOT!!! And that is what I did... Who can resist the beauty of sleeping when you have such an adorable sleepmate to cuddle up with? *winks*
Too bad you aren't here with me...
And since I'm back in beloved Ipoh after such a long time, surely I have to eat all the good food!!!
Tauge chicken, sa hor fun, pan mee, siew toufu, roasted pork, ku lou pork, soft-shell crab, butter prawn, dumplings, curry mutton, oyster porridge... and all my mummy's home-made dishes!
Yum yum...!
*you won't get fat if you don't think about getting fat...* ------- Lame theory of mine but a good excuse to continue eating without feeling guilty... hehe...
Another best activity --- lepak-ing!!! Monday Parade, Tuesday Parade, Thursday JJ, Saturday Tesco...!
Okay, I know I really am wasting time... =.=
But OMG, lately I'm so very into sports wear! (though lazy me don't actually do sports, except dancing, swimming, ping pong and... ^_^) Yes I don't do sports, but I can still like sports wear rite? Lolx...
All these lepak-ing makes me realise there are lotsa nice tops for sale; Schwarzenbach, Ogival and my dearest Nike! But I gotta save gotta save gotta save!
So I'd been struggling for quite a long time whether or not to get myself this really nice sleeveless Nike hoodie that I saw a month ago... And after lotz of decision-making, I'm finally the proud owner of the dark-grey hoodie, after figuring out that white is harder to maintain.
It's super comfy and sporty and a little sexy... cheerz to another priced possesion of mine! *gotta save up on food when I get back to SA to make up for the cash loss... sniff sniff...*
I'll wear it to show you someday... lolx...
And oh yea, I saw my dear Sifu on Thursday!
It was Thursday nite and I was going to JJ to check out my Nike hoodie. Bumped into her right at the main entrance. She told me the kids at studio were going to be performing for some charity thingy and since I'm so coincidently there, I might as well go and support.
Turned out that I stood there watching the performance for the rest of the night, along with a couple of old friends whom I met there. Most of the dances that night was Latin, there was one nice Tango, by the senior students. It was nice.
But too bad that in between the dances, there are lots of kids and teens singing, which I find very BORING! They were just standing there shouting the songs out in their loud kids' voice, all dressed up like dolls, and some doing lame dances which are so not-up-to-standard compared to the latin dances... Spent the time chatting with my friends throughout the singing performances... Lolx...
It had been quite some time I hadn't seen my studio friends and all of them were glad and surprised to see that I'm back. (this old and tall junior of theirs who 'disappears' to KL very often... and magically 'reappears' every half a year later... sobz..)
Sorry. I didn't really have a choice. I love dancing and I really do miss dancing at the studio all the time. If only I have the time, I'll surely go as often as I could.
It's just that I have other things on hand. Not now, maybe later... Someday I'll be back, don't worry.
Sifu caught me in the crowd when a little girl dressed as a princess was shouting some mandarin song onstage. Caught me right when I was consuming a 150kcal McD ice-cream...OMG. *paiseh >.<*
She shot me a disapproving look... Sorry Sifu, I'll watch my weight... *blushes blushes*
I remember the last time she said I had put on weight, it was when she was fetching me back home from studio. And she told me the cheapest way of losing weight is to go jogging by the Kinta River, which is practically right opposite my house..
Ahem, she didn't know that jogging was my most-hated sports ever... =.=
Oh, and I remember that You too always advised me to go jogging...
Okay okay, maybe I should listen to you all and go try someday... for the sake of my abs... OMG..
She told me about the latest happenings at the studio... which made me miss that place even more. Sigh sigh sigh......Jiyi is feeling darn emo...
I WANT TO GO BACK TO STUDIO AND LEARN MY DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!! How on earth am I going to get any further if I am so discontinuous???!!
Okay, no ranting. Ranting isn't going to help in any way.
And I know you don't like me complaining.
I'll just pray hard.
& Strive hard.
I'll make you proud.
I believe that one day, I will have all my dreams come true. As long as I have the determination. This is something that You taught me... ^_^ wonder if you realise it or not...
I am never lost, with Father and my guardian angel beside me... *smiles*
Gracias!!!
* In the meantime, I'm gonna polish up the routines I had learnt... practise makes perfect right? And I'm still a long way to perfection... Yay, light up and gear up!!! *
Yupz, I'm very much alive and active.
Thanks for your concerns.
This is the 2nd last day of my mid-sem break *cries out loud* so I'll just sum up on all the procrastinating and unproductive life of the past week. >.< (Am not going to mention about the previous 2 weeks when I was entrapped in a jail of Nelsons, notes and pyq... Each day waking up and being dragged out of jail to undergo trial after trial in an excruciatingly cold chamber before being sent back to the lonely jail again, awaiting and dreading the trials to face the next day... *shivers* )
Back to the story.
The best way to start an unproductive lifestyle is to SLEEP A LOT!!! And that is what I did... Who can resist the beauty of sleeping when you have such an adorable sleepmate to cuddle up with? *winks*
Too bad you aren't here with me...
And since I'm back in beloved Ipoh after such a long time, surely I have to eat all the good food!!!
Tauge chicken, sa hor fun, pan mee, siew toufu, roasted pork, ku lou pork, soft-shell crab, butter prawn, dumplings, curry mutton, oyster porridge... and all my mummy's home-made dishes!
Yum yum...!
*you won't get fat if you don't think about getting fat...* ------- Lame theory of mine but a good excuse to continue eating without feeling guilty... hehe...
Another best activity --- lepak-ing!!! Monday Parade, Tuesday Parade, Thursday JJ, Saturday Tesco...!
Okay, I know I really am wasting time... =.=
But OMG, lately I'm so very into sports wear! (though lazy me don't actually do sports, except dancing, swimming, ping pong and... ^_^) Yes I don't do sports, but I can still like sports wear rite? Lolx...
All these lepak-ing makes me realise there are lotsa nice tops for sale; Schwarzenbach, Ogival and my dearest Nike! But I gotta save gotta save gotta save!
So I'd been struggling for quite a long time whether or not to get myself this really nice sleeveless Nike hoodie that I saw a month ago... And after lotz of decision-making, I'm finally the proud owner of the dark-grey hoodie, after figuring out that white is harder to maintain.
It's super comfy and sporty and a little sexy... cheerz to another priced possesion of mine! *gotta save up on food when I get back to SA to make up for the cash loss... sniff sniff...*
I'll wear it to show you someday... lolx...
And oh yea, I saw my dear Sifu on Thursday!
It was Thursday nite and I was going to JJ to check out my Nike hoodie. Bumped into her right at the main entrance. She told me the kids at studio were going to be performing for some charity thingy and since I'm so coincidently there, I might as well go and support.
Turned out that I stood there watching the performance for the rest of the night, along with a couple of old friends whom I met there. Most of the dances that night was Latin, there was one nice Tango, by the senior students. It was nice.
But too bad that in between the dances, there are lots of kids and teens singing, which I find very BORING! They were just standing there shouting the songs out in their loud kids' voice, all dressed up like dolls, and some doing lame dances which are so not-up-to-standard compared to the latin dances... Spent the time chatting with my friends throughout the singing performances... Lolx...
It had been quite some time I hadn't seen my studio friends and all of them were glad and surprised to see that I'm back. (this old and tall junior of theirs who 'disappears' to KL very often... and magically 'reappears' every half a year later... sobz..)
Sorry. I didn't really have a choice. I love dancing and I really do miss dancing at the studio all the time. If only I have the time, I'll surely go as often as I could.
It's just that I have other things on hand. Not now, maybe later... Someday I'll be back, don't worry.
Sifu caught me in the crowd when a little girl dressed as a princess was shouting some mandarin song onstage. Caught me right when I was consuming a 150kcal McD ice-cream...OMG. *paiseh >.<*
She shot me a disapproving look... Sorry Sifu, I'll watch my weight... *blushes blushes*
I remember the last time she said I had put on weight, it was when she was fetching me back home from studio. And she told me the cheapest way of losing weight is to go jogging by the Kinta River, which is practically right opposite my house..
Ahem, she didn't know that jogging was my most-hated sports ever... =.=
Oh, and I remember that You too always advised me to go jogging...
Okay okay, maybe I should listen to you all and go try someday... for the sake of my abs... OMG..
She told me about the latest happenings at the studio... which made me miss that place even more. Sigh sigh sigh......Jiyi is feeling darn emo...
I WANT TO GO BACK TO STUDIO AND LEARN MY DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!! How on earth am I going to get any further if I am so discontinuous???!!
Okay, no ranting. Ranting isn't going to help in any way.
And I know you don't like me complaining.
I'll just pray hard.
& Strive hard.
I'll make you proud.
I believe that one day, I will have all my dreams come true. As long as I have the determination. This is something that You taught me... ^_^ wonder if you realise it or not...
I am never lost, with Father and my guardian angel beside me... *smiles*
Gracias!!!
* In the meantime, I'm gonna polish up the routines I had learnt... practise makes perfect right? And I'm still a long way to perfection... Yay, light up and gear up!!! *
Monday, March 16, 2009
Donde eres, carino?
Pink letter on my desk. Little white paper within.
Right there waiting. De mi casa.
I'm home. Finally, back home...
:) in my arms. Donde Que Que?
Right here waiting. Esperar (wishing)...
If only I could spend this time with you.
It's all right.
Till the next 16th then...
Right there waiting. De mi casa.
I'm home. Finally, back home...
It's the 16th today.
:) in my arms. Donde Que Que?
Right here waiting. Esperar (wishing)...
If only I could spend this time with you.
Sleep darling, sleep tight.
It's all right.
Till the next 16th then...
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Te Extrano
Poisson, poisson, poisson.
In French, there is this word Poisson, (read as pwah-sohn), which means "fish".
No, no. Not fish. There's no fish here. It's Statistics.
X~ Poi ( λ)
Heavy books. Heavier eyelids.
Even heavier heart.
I wonder.
A pack of cold rice, untouched.
I'm yearning for the untouchable now. Too bad.
Left with my right atrium and right ventricle. But they're still beating. These troubled heartbeats of mine.
I heard a sound from home just now.
Not a sound from beyond. No music to my ears, as you always say.
In French, there is this word Poisson, (read as pwah-sohn), which means "fish".
No, no. Not fish. There's no fish here. It's Statistics.
X~ Poi ( λ)
Heavy books. Heavier eyelids.
Even heavier heart.
I wonder.
A pack of cold rice, untouched.
I'm yearning for the untouchable now. Too bad.
Left with my right atrium and right ventricle. But they're still beating. These troubled heartbeats of mine.
I heard a sound from home just now.
Not a sound from beyond. No music to my ears, as you always say.
Have I ever told you?
Te extrano mucho mucho.
Buenas noche, carino.
Te extrano mucho mucho.
Buenas noche, carino.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Dear Sifu
There are things I'd always wanted to tell you.
I saw this note I wrote in my diary today, and it reminds me of the things that you once told me. Maybe the storms are over for you now, neways, this late message is still, about the things I just wanted you to know.
That day during new year I went to your house, and I see that you are happy enough. It's comforting to know that. I hope you can always be as happy. God bless.
22-8-2008
师父，你总给我一种无忧无虑的感觉。我印象中的你，总像个活在通话世界里的孩子，自己制舞衣，自己教自己喜欢的学生，跳自己喜欢的舞…… 总是那么自在愉快。有时总让我很羡慕。可这一次，我竟看见了你无忧无虑背后的一面。你说我听了那么多，我才懂，原来你也有你的烦恼，你也有你的悲伤。
师父呀，你总对人人都好。
可是你懂吗，不是人人都懂得回报你的好。未必的。你要明白世界的残酷啊！记得吗，我总说你常想人家比想自己还要多，这样总会让你很容易受伤的。像现在一样。对不起呀，可是我只得告诉你，这就是世界的现实。很多时候，你真的不能对人太无私的好，会让你遍体鳞伤的。这是我一早便学懂的道理。师父呀，你也要学着。在经历了这一切以后，我想你会吧！
当时你问我：“我是不是很好？是不是对人都太好？”
我点点头，当然赞同。
你便一脸疑惑了：“可是为什么别人还要这样反过来伤害我？”
我想你一定是摸不着为什么。我也无法回答你什么。我也不懂。世界要残酷，也许真的不需要什么理由。谁人要伤害你，要背叛你…… 也往往不须要太多的理由。
师父，只求你能坚强。
不要因一次的挫败而永垂不起。
不要放弃你的爱。
也请继续你的好。
只是，你要学习看清楚这一个世界。当中，有许许多多的丑陋与险恶…… 那些不由得你来掌控的剧情，…… 你都要一一看清。
你是一个很有大爱的人。如你，上帝必会看顾。 我也会为你祈祷。祈求你不会再这样受伤害。
继续坚强吧！继续坚守信念吧！继续爱着吧！
I saw this note I wrote in my diary today, and it reminds me of the things that you once told me. Maybe the storms are over for you now, neways, this late message is still, about the things I just wanted you to know.
That day during new year I went to your house, and I see that you are happy enough. It's comforting to know that. I hope you can always be as happy. God bless.
22-8-2008
师父，你总给我一种无忧无虑的感觉。我印象中的你，总像个活在通话世界里的孩子，自己制舞衣，自己教自己喜欢的学生，跳自己喜欢的舞…… 总是那么自在愉快。有时总让我很羡慕。可这一次，我竟看见了你无忧无虑背后的一面。你说我听了那么多，我才懂，原来你也有你的烦恼，你也有你的悲伤。
师父呀，你总对人人都好。
可是你懂吗，不是人人都懂得回报你的好。未必的。你要明白世界的残酷啊！记得吗，我总说你常想人家比想自己还要多，这样总会让你很容易受伤的。像现在一样。对不起呀，可是我只得告诉你，这就是世界的现实。很多时候，你真的不能对人太无私的好，会让你遍体鳞伤的。这是我一早便学懂的道理。师父呀，你也要学着。在经历了这一切以后，我想你会吧！
当时你问我：“我是不是很好？是不是对人都太好？”
我点点头，当然赞同。
你便一脸疑惑了：“可是为什么别人还要这样反过来伤害我？”
我想你一定是摸不着为什么。我也无法回答你什么。我也不懂。世界要残酷，也许真的不需要什么理由。谁人要伤害你，要背叛你…… 也往往不须要太多的理由。
师父，只求你能坚强。
不要因一次的挫败而永垂不起。
不要放弃你的爱。
也请继续你的好。
只是，你要学习看清楚这一个世界。当中，有许许多多的丑陋与险恶…… 那些不由得你来掌控的剧情，…… 你都要一一看清。
你是一个很有大爱的人。如你，上帝必会看顾。 我也会为你祈祷。祈求你不会再这样受伤害。
继续坚强吧！继续坚守信念吧！继续爱着吧！
I'm glad you got through.
Proud of you. ^_^
Proud of you. ^_^
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