El Comienzo (2)

"This is your partner."

A nod. Smiles exchanged. He made a sheepishly cute gesture. He's no more than a boy. Tall, but young. Sixteen. She walked up and gave him her right hand, left hand resting on his shoulder.


"Now, let us start with the basic..."

Back, front, side, hips down... *twist a figure of 8
Front, back, side, hips down... *another reversed figure of 8
Repeat, and spot....turn. Back to close position.


Looked, looked again, tried with her partner. Got the steps right.
And again. This time, trying out both the steps and the technique. Back, front...
"Pull your body upright all the time, chest out..."

Nodded. And again, Back, front, side, hips.....down.
"Don't set your weight down on your hips before the beat. Hold it a little longer..."
"Boy, bend your legs a little. And remember the HIPS! This is not the Cha Cha."


And repeat. Underarm turn. Spot....turn... swayed a little...
"Watch your footing... Don't sway, don't stagger..."

And again. Spot... turn... still not a nice, swift turn.
"Keep your balance... I know it's hard on a 2 and a half inch especially when you are new. But try to work on keeping a sure landing of your foot all the time..."

And again and again. Spot... turn... land... hips down.
"Better... Keep this up. " A smile.

She let out a breathe, smiled back.


Teacher is always so patient in teaching them. In Teacher's patience, she could grow at ease of her own pace. And she was grateful for that. Afterall, she was a late beginner at the age of 18, unlike the other children. Moreover, she doesn't have any other basics to start with. She knew Teacher would understand that very well. But again, she wanted to do better, and still, to always improve.


"Now the Hand to Hand..."
"The Fan..."
" The Rhumba Walk..."
"The New York..."


So much to learn. Gotta work hard work hard. She was determined. Flung her hair back, wiped the sweat on her forehead. And again she tried. To be sure of each step, each move in the routine. To polish up her technique. To keep her feet's interaction with the floor. To glide along on point rather than lifting her feet even the slightest. To coordinate with her partner's steps...

And the most important Cuban Motion. Have to execute that well. It's like the soul of a nice Rhumba dance. Essential.


There's so much more to dancing than just steps...
And she knew she gotta work hard at it.

El Comienzo (1)

Finally, she was back. Took a deep breath, rang the bell. A little boy opened the door.
"Thank you."

Soft flowing curtains, glass partition doors. Pictures hung on the walls. A long black sofa in a corner, little cushion chairs around. Comfortably homely.

Faces; some familiar, some never seen before. They looked up, smiled, greeted, talked. Friendly faces, warm smiles. She felt so at home.
This is where I want to belong.


Guiro rhythm distantly sounding. The unmistakable 5/4 beat of the Cha Cha. That was the first dance she'd learnt. How long had that been? A year maybe?
Gosh, it's been such a long time. And I miss it so. She sighed.


Her gaze fell beyond the glass door. Watched her seniors chasse across the floor. Straight, slender legs. Dancer's body. Sleek, sharp moves. She watched in awe.
One day, I'm going to glide like them.

"Rhumba, over here..."

Took out her glittery dance shoes and strapped them on. Two and a half inch.

She strode past the glass door along with the others. A row of tall mirrors greeted her. Parquette floor. A Barré against the wall.

A pretty figure standing in front, back facing the mirrors. The familiar face, the ever-charming smile. She knew it so well.

"Hey teacher..."

"You're back..." A glitter in her eyes.

It's Coming...

Christmas is officially over.
Christmases are yet to come.
It's never the same again. At least not just yet in the next few years.

Father,

May every Christmas to come be full of Your blessings.

The rainy season had started.
Storms are yet to come.
It's going to be hard. At least I ain't gonna see it stop just so soon yet.

Father,

I'm preparing my heart. Grant us strength.

The road is coming to an end.

The journey had yet to start.

It's going to be long. At least long enough for the heart to grow fonder.

Father,

I need Your help. See us through.

Yet again,

The prayers will never end.

It's going to be alright in His presence...

Remember,

there are three things that endure,

and the greatest of all...

It never leaves you.

*Just close your eyes, and I'll be
there. *

I'm Still Learning...

I might be
at times whinning,
at times biting;
Noisily annoying.

I'm sorry
for all the hard times I'd given you;
Give me time,
For in your ever-forgiving patience,
I learn to grow.

One day,

I'll grow into a better Me,

the daughter you and I would wish to see.

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I might be
at times unexpressive,
at times quiet,
many times a dummy.

Forgive me,
Still a novice in the domain;
Give me time,
For in your ever-loving ways,
I learn the depths of Love.

Someday,

I'll show you my heart,

and all that you'd wish to find within.

Now, and always,

Together

let us be walking, in the shadows of the Cross;

Learning, His words;

Growing, in His holy light;

Rejoycing, His Love for us and in us;

Praising, for His blessings;

Glorifying Lord in every way.

Y de nuevo, te amo.

*And again, I love you.*

Shine Your Light On Me

Let the light, from the lighthouse,

let it shine on me!

I wonder, I wonder, if the light,

from the lighthouse,

would shine on me?

Here is my thought,

this is my plea!

Lord let your holy light shine on me.

I wonder will you, hear my prayer?

I know I'm not worthy,

but I need your help!

Lord shine your light, shine it this way,

Shine it so I can see which way to take.

My faith is in you,

to bring me through,

I have one question...

I wonder, I wonder,

if the light, from the lighthouse,

would shine on me?

And so I pray for your guidance, O Lord,

Let me walk the path of what is right,

Let me hold on to what I believe;

Not foolishly adamant,

but in the light of your words,

With the strength that comes from you,

dear Father.

I surrender to you now all that comes from you,

Lord shine your holy light upon me,

upon us,

and upon everyone else that needs You.

In Jesus most holy name I pray,

Amen.

¡Hola, Bonita!

*****BEWARE!!!*****

A Beauty coming your wayyyyyyy!!!!!

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TADAA!!!!!!

Chill babe... Hang on a while...

Take a deep breath;

Here we go...

Whoa look!!!

A watch!!!

* Watches are Jiyi's best friends just as diamonds are a girl's best friends..*

Lolx...

Let's have a closer look!!! Zoom in, camera!!!

See the love-shaped clock-face?

It's oh-so-adorable!!!

Awwww...

Thanks so much!!!

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One more beauty to add to my watch collection!!!

And a hyper memorable one too!!!

YAY!!!

*You're right, I AM lucky*

Nite nite, my dearie!!!

The End; Another Beginning

Waltz or not Waltz?
Sigh, I'm torn between. The sem break's ending soon, it's not really a good idea to continue with Waltz, cuz I might not be able to finish the beginner's level in time. And I HATE unfinished routines and lessons. But I oh-so-badly wanted to learn!!! And there's Samba too. Crep... so much to do, so less time left.


Time Time TIME.
It's always the problem of time. I'm always running, running and running after time. Exhausted yet still chasing. But still, I'm so short of time. Please, please. I NEED more time. Just a little more and I could have done more, I could have moved even closer.

If only I had more time.

And now, this lack of time is drawing me nearer and nearer to the death of my dreams. I'm helpless, so helpless. Tell me what could I do when I'm so running out of time?!
Nooo!!! It can't be. I'll never let it end like this, and pass to a state of grim nonexistence. Never.


But I guess what is supposed to come, will come; no matter how much I dreaded it. And again, this is not the only story that goes that way.

I should have known, the day you'll wave me goodbye...

It's time I learn. To learn to accept, when there's no way of changing what fate brings. I might well be frustrated, I might well be heartbroken; but still, have to accept and to make the best of everything.


You told me that after the death of dreams there'll be a rebirth of dreams. Yea, I'll keep your words in mind. I'm not throwing out the flames, I'm just keeping the fire low. Till the chance comes by one day.
There'll be the day.
There's still hope.

One day, all my dreams will come true.

First Week Of December

Been a bit busy over lotta stuffs this week...so many things that happened, I'm juz gonna sum up the week:

Monday

Went for driving lesson no 2 early in the morning. Learnt to go uphill. *it's not exactly a hill, juz a 20 degrees bukit...* But it's damn hard to master, mind you. The worst part keeping your left and right feet totally still, and pull the handbrake up and release it down again, without moving one other muscle. The theory is, keep your upper body detached from your lower body, so whatever your upper body does, your lower body does not follow... err....if you know what I'm crapping about. Lolx...

Never mind that, the point is, I don't really like driving. (restricted movements of legs, unefficient blood circulation, hot weather, crappy mood...etc etc) I'd much rather have a personal driver to drive me around, while I sit back and close my eyes... wakakaka...

Neways, gotta work work work work HARD!!!!! CANNOT FAIL CANNOT FAIL CANNOT FAIL...


Tuesday

Driving lesson no 3. Bukit again, plus the Three-point-turn. Today I did much better, especially at the bukit. Whew... Jiyi is finally getting the hang of it. Lolx. But I'm seriously "BURNT" today!!! ARGH... It's a torture to drive under the buring sun of 1pm - 3pm!!! The sun shines straight thru the opened car window and after the 2 hours of lesson, OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! I'm darker by a few shades!!! Wahhhh.......NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!


Wednesday

Had a real good day out today. Just wanna say, I'm really happy with every single little thing today, even if I have to sacrifice some of my sleeptime... haha... And every past problems are resolved all together this day. This day, there's no more tears, no more sadness, no more sleepless nights... I pray this will carry on forever.
I'm feeling like the luckiest gal on earth. And surely you know why...


Friday

A tired tired day. But everything's worth it. *wink*
Ran around Ipoh Parade for 5 hours. Up and down, east and west. Rummaged thru almost every single shop... Lolx...
Mission: In search of the ideal Christmas gift/gifts!!! *Oh, and not to forget, a nice Christmas card too! *
Note: Hope you'll like it...!!!


Saturday

Went swimming!!! ^_^ Such a long time I haven't had a nice swim already. And this is in my apartment pool!!! It's just like a private swimming pool. (minus the Malay kiddies at the other far end) So calm, so clean, so serene, so blissful...

What's better than a nice, cozy day as this?


Sunday

The long awaited dancing lessons again! Okay, so I know I'm still quite a noob, but I'm already working on it, very very HARD!!! Sigh... I would give anything to be able to dance like a pro.
It's Rhumba today...basic steps, Hand to Hand, Fan and Rhumba Walk...
The lesson was fun!!! but then again, dancing is always fun... Looking forward to the next lesson!!!
Oh, and I might have the chance to learn Waltz also!!! Wow!!! Ballroom dancing! I haven't learnt any dances in that field before! Hope I can have the chance soon... and when can I learn my favourite Tango? (lolx... advice to myself: Girl, you need to take one step at a time!)

*Dreading having to go back to Shah Alam... sigh...

Hope the new week ahead could be just as great, if not better!!!

Till the next time...

Nighty-nitez!

禰的恩赐

有一些东西，是一生一世都不会忘记的。


一定要记住快乐的感觉。你也一样。当以后即使有不快乐的时候，也可以回味一下。那便也笑了，呵呵，呵呵。希望会是当时那一种同样的快乐。该多好。

May happiness always be with him, Father.

那气息是一种很奇妙的东西。早已不在了，还是可以记得起。仿佛仍在五蕾上没有消失过。

会牢记那一种很希望时间会静止不动的……啊，当时的夜空多美。那空气里弥漫的……多让人惦念。只是时间没有停止过。还是那样地走；留也留不住。
那只有挥手说再见。挥手呀挥手， 像送船一样地挥手。没关系，都已镶在记忆的框框里了。
还记得当时说了什么吗？
还记得那一首歌吗？
还记得那些走过的每一个脚步吗？

I remember, it's beautiful, Father.

上帝给我有很多的安排。只是我暂时不知道而已。我相信祂会庇佑我的，一如祂爱护所有神的儿女。
我祈祷不用再这样掉眼泪了。但求从今能有多一些快乐。你也一样。

Take away the tears, Father.

恩赐。已是最大的恩赐。一样是你。

世界每一分每一秒都在改变。是有些东西却不会改变。是我坚守的。永远相信的。
早已烙印在心中……

I thank thee for thy great blessings, Father.

A blessing. Now, and forever.

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