Save The Last Dance

Busy busy busy... Had quite a happening week. Speaking test, CTU assignments, maths homework, CA, plus loads of dance rehersals and finally, the real performance. Though the hustle and bustle makes me weary or pissed off at times, I'm quite loving it, in a way. Now that everything's settled, no more performances, no more dances...I seems to be even restless than ever. Yeah, I had maybe my last dance performance in INTEC, last Friday. In the days to come, I'm so going to miss days like these.

Let me give a brief recap of my week. Here goes:

Monday

Speaking test. Kinda flunked it. Still in holiday mood, I suppose. Actually, I only got to know that I'll have a test the day before!!! (Thanks to our highly-efficient class rep) And I went for it without any mental preparation. Hey, I didn't speak much English for the whole 1 week of holiday, okay! It got a bit rusty. Till I forgot to use past tense for past events!!! Uh-oh...big mistake that is!!! I guess a band 7 will be a blessing. Anyway, thank God it's over.

Dance practise at night. Guess everyone's in holiday mood. Our dances are all over the place. Messy steps, clumsy moves, wobbly spins, banging into each other during transitions... I don't know how are we going to face the big day which is only 4 days away if we continue to dance like this. I might just go into hiding that day. SWT.


Tuesday

International Food Carnival thingy at INTEC. There were 8 stalls selling a variety of food from different countries, according to their respective programmes. Korea, Japan, Egypt, USA, Russia, Deutschand, Aussie, and err...dunno what place the ALM represented by selling fish and chips. Went there a bit too late. A lot of food already finish disapu when we got there. Managed to steal a bite of Egyptian food from the ALGs, and Sifu a.k.a Andersen donated me a sushi. Thanks guys! Mis amigos got Korean Kimchi and American breakfast and we shared the food out. These settled my lunch.^-^

Had rehersal at night. Weren't that good either. But it was better than Monday's practise. Hope we can do better. Went back with a painful left arm. Dota King Ken twisted it when we were trying out a new move we saw on a So You Think You Can Dance clip. Ouch... so much for that move.

Did power point for the rest of the nite. CTU presentation...sigh... (what a waste of time) But eventually got addicted to it and ended up doing another silly slideshow with my roommate...


Wednesday

Dance practise again at night. Getting more and more tired day by day. It's been raining all the time these days. Got a bad headache. Bio lab was a turmoil. Catching unseen bubbles from photosynthesis is not a fun thing to do when you have a headache...

Costumes, costumes, costumes. Have to ponder over what to wear for performance. Colour code, dress code, accessories and all. It adds to my headache. But I do love to play dress up. (minus the dress code) Us dancers ended up having sort of a 'fashion parade' for the nite... haven't done my Maths homework and haven't studied for Bio test...sigh)


Thursday

We were supposed to have full dress rehersal at 4pm but it got delayed. And it interfered with my plan to go to CA. Was kinda frustrated with the management. It wasn't the first time they changed the rehersal time without any notice beforehand.

Ended up ponteng rehersal and going to CA. Actually my partner Ken also not going, so I have no one to dance with even if I go to the rehersal. CA's theme was Independence Day... and when we got upstairs, Eliza was just going to decorate the place with loads of M'sia flags... there were a couple big ones... and we wrap them around our body and run about, feigning rejoycing Olympic medallists... swt.

(No pictures with me now, only this one of a siao person pretending to be a flying Superman)

I won in games!!! For the first time in my life I think... I used to be a loser when it comes to games, but this time I won!!! And the prize is chocolate from Deutschland!!! Gracias ALG9 super super seniors!!! But this was one weird game, that is pairing up all the people, and the pair who can look straight into each other's eyes the longest without smiling or laughing or vomiting or whatever, will win. Got paired up with 'Sifu'. (swt) (this one ciplak punya sifu. Ok, is drum sifu lar, no offence ya, andersen!) Usually I surely beh tahan in this type of games, but dunno why this time we can even make funny faces at each other and not smile. Maybe because chocolate from Deutschland was too tempting! Or maybe I'm 'scared' because 'Sifu' looks too 'fierce'. (oops) (I was the one who smiled eventually. 'Sifu' so geng, he can keep a supposingly straight face all the time?!)

This is mua prize!!! Yummy! (Any sacrifice is worth it...uh well, I mean...)

The talk was creative and inspiring too. The marble part was awesome. I kept my marble safe in my bag. I hope I can always keep it as a reminder. Hey, I seems to be preparing a CA report with this long entry! lol... But I do really love CA.


Friday

The big day. Our last dance performance appoinment. Nada after that. We senior dancers are going to retire and leave it to the juniors. (makes me sound so old...sob)

There weren't many people there I think. Just enough to fill the hall losely. Kinda informal. We didn't even bother much to put on makeup. Our dance was a combined one, so there were Malay Dance, Indian Dance, 70's Chinese Dance and our New Jazz + Hip-Hop Fusion Dance. I'm in the new jazz team. (bored of hip-hop) For our performance, well, can't expect much from a lame choreograph and lack of practise right? But we tried our best, and nothing real bad happened, like collisions etc...praise the Lord. And the best part is we can camwhore in our costumes after that, and we got a huge hamper as a token of gratitude! Yay!!! So our last dance can be considered a success afterall.

Mi y mis amigos!!! My roomies...they are all doing the 70's dance

The 2 pairs of new jazz dancers- Szemin & Karpui, me & Ken

This is nuestro hamper!!! Bonita!!!

Me & brudder...(taiko) :p

Camwhoring with roomies back in hostel

Back in hostel, in my costume- minus the dress code

Adios! Hasta luego!

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这样好了……

不要。不要。别关上门。关上了就会看不见了。

有期待便好了，等待便好了。有时候，等待也是一种幸福。

我总是远远地，我们总是远远地。远远地便好了。

对你，我真的不能奢求些什么呀。真的不敢奢求些什么。
这样的距离刚刚好的。
刚刚好让眼泪不会被你看见。
刚刚好让伤心不会被你察觉。
刚刚好了。

只想你知道，继续你的好吧。

有些人是很幸福的。不是我，没关系；是你们就好了。
横坚，只想你拥有最大最大的快乐。

这样便好了。

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周记一则

“我什么也不想做。

我只想好好地写一篇周记；以及好好地爱你。

请原谅我。我只是一个十七岁的女生……”

记得高中的时候，老师会让我们写周记。是每个星期得要交上去的功课；有时是一些值得思考的主题，有时，纯粹是自由发挥。好怀念、好怀念那些日子。那些可以肆无忌荡地吐露心声的日子。而老师总很有耐心地一篇一篇地看，然后写下一些精心的评语；有时，甚至是一些关爱的奉劝。

后来离开了高中生活，我还是会写周记。一篇又一篇。有多少了？都数不清。我只知道我喜欢写、喜欢与周记谈心。它不会笑我。它从来只是静静地听。

而又后来，在这些忙碌的日子里，每一天的挣扎奔波……多久了，没有再写过一篇周记。有时会好想好想一个人静一下，好好地写一篇周记。你懂吗，写周记对我而言，不再只是高中时一样功课那么简单了；那是一种享受，是一个让我可以好好看见自己的时候。只是……对不起，我没时间。就算是我有时间的时候，我也已经很累了。
周记，对不起，搁置了你这么久。

我很累，真的很累。

还得面对好多批零扑隆的狼狈。

‘我只是想好好地写一篇周记；以及好好地爱你。’

可我很累。原来不止心会累，手也会累。

那么……不写了。那么……可以不爱了吗？

@ Studio

Drinking tea and looking at pretty photos of the Dinner & Dance Night, wishing that I could be up there performing one day

@ Studio
(thanks Ah Nee for preparing the tea :p)

My beloved Sifu and her hubby performing @ Dinner & Dance Night

I lost all my photos and video I took that night, so I had to take photos of photos instead. Swt... Sorry...

I'm Sorry...

Raining on and off for the whole afternoon. But never mind that, I get to spend my afternoon with Sifu.

Yup, I got to see my Sifu, finally. Been how long I haven't seen her? One month? Or is it more? Goodness, I do miss her so. As I expected my dad to say something like,"What?! Go dancing again?...What time?..." (grumble grumble... about wasting his time and my time...), so I felt so much relieved to have Sifu to fetch me there. Save the trouble, save the grumble. (Peace!)


In the car, she asked me a question, is dancing something you really WANT, or is it something you really LIKE. There's difference. If you WANT it, you'll work harder for it, compared to if you LIKE it. I thought about the question for a long time, and I didn't know the anwser. At least, I can't answer it, now. Maybe, there'll be one day, I could be able to answer the question, confidently. I can only tell her that I'm something in between. And she said it can't be so, I'll be forever stuck in the gap. I really wish that I could give her a better answer, one day.


She asked me again, won't you feel proud if you are to train under a famous teacher? I answered, "Sure!". She told me she wasn't a famous teacher. Uh-oh... I told her that as long as I feel that she's great, it's all that matters. And yes, deep from my heart I do really think she's great. You see, a great teacher isn't everything about excellent dance skills and fame. It's always something more, something from within. It's just too hard to explain.


Learnt Samba today. I don't know why sifu chose to teach me that. I thought she was going to give me a new routine for the dances that I've learnt, but she taught me a new dance instead. The second hardest dance of all 5 Latin dances. No joke, it IS hard. To execute the moves nicely, I mean. It involves a lot of movements of the belly, something similar to Belly Dancing. Sorry Sifu, I think I did not dance well up to your expectation today. I'll work harder this time, for sure. You see, it's been quite a long time I haven't been dancing Latin. Life in INTEC doesn't really allow me to do so either. (akasia badminton court's always full) And to think that I had promised you that I would work harder!!! I'm so so so sorry.


I'm working. It just takes time. More time. I have to juggle ALM life and to explore by myself how is it that the force should be kept at waist level while letting your feet jive along lightly, looking weightless.

Just hope you'll understand.

Insanity Overdose

I'd came to realise that I might have gone a little insane, since Form 5. A bit out of my mind. As to end up doing a lot of weird stuff I'd rather not do if I have the extremely sane mind of a doctor material, aka the ALM material, as my friends used to say.



So here goes part of the list:


1. MINUTES TO FAME 2006- AMC EDITION

I'll laugh till I cry thinking of this. It's this kind of insane competition where you do anything onstage to while away as much time as you can, before one of the judges 'beh tahan' & press the bell to chase you off the stage. The longer you can 'survive' onstage, the better. This was what we tried to do. I seriously think that we tried too hard, in the wrong way too. Imagine the combination of spoons, forks, plates, school ties, plastic roses, toilet brushes and brooms in a performance. Moreover, with the group name 160 club. SWEAT. lol. I feel like a group of silly clowns, rather than serious competitors. Nevertheles, we had the most fun then we'd ever had in our whole secondary school life.

We never took any proper photos though, so there's only this photo to show our 160 club members, with some other friends.

160 club members---start from 2nd from right : Michelle, me, xuxu, and Sally.

2. Ponteng Accounts Mid-term Exam

No need much explanation for this. We didn't study so we didn't go for exam lor. Simple right? And no photos to show too (Duh, obviously!). Got seriously scolded & warned by all those big big people (guru besar, mulut besar, kepala besar...) No, we didn't get a zero. Those big big people do have some heart, I suppose.

3. WORLD IDOL 2008

Sounds nice, right? At least it has an even nicer name than Malaysian Idol... This is World Idol!!!

Muahahaha... Whatever, I joined along with my friends, just for the fun of it. I knew we wouldn't win. Hey we did accapella...Who on earth will win World Idol with accapella?! The other teams were jamming away or doing some real hot live band stuff, and we were accapella-ing?! But great nite it is. There are a few nice singers, some sucky ones as well, some over-exaggerated band players and lead singers, but there's a real cool drummer. He can play the drums so well!!! It made me more interested in playing the drum than ever. Maybe one day, I'll learn drum.

4. Malam Merentasi Zaman 2008

Well, this is one whole new experience as well. First time being sort of a runway model. lol. They even have a T-platform!!! Made up of wobbly tables adjoined together.(scary). I got some sort of feudal baju kebaya, all shinny and gold in colour. I dunno how to describe it. It looks kinda nice, something I'd never ever wore before in my life. I felt like a princess in those old Malay stories., you know, those stories that usually has a nenek kebayan character. Like Puteri Gunung Ledang. My friends were in the Chinese ribbon dance, so they get to wear cheongsam, though their cheongsam are like one size bigger, and they have to wear slacks and hand-socks beneath. Pity pity, I'd never wore cheongsam before. I wish I'll have a chance someday.

In the changing 'room'...Ying Jie, Me & Ah Long

The head accessory weighs a tonne!!!

That's why I ended up not wearing it onstage...but with some kind of weird hairstyle instead.

5. Playing Masak Masak?!

This is a normal thing for other people, but not for me. It's only the second time I've really cooked. Three other friends and I wanted to break through our cooking-noob title to emerge as the ideal wives, so we made a plan to cook dinner. And this is how we fared. Quite nice, right?! We passed beginner's level without setting Block 3 on fire!!! Thank God. Though the rice seems a bit overcooked & it tasted a bit burnt, we sapu everything like hungry ghosts. The cooking process really made us exhausted. Swt...

6. Breaking Curfew

Ok, another accomplishment. Reason? To watch the grand opening ceremony of Beijing Olympics 2008 at McD, and also to break the curfew just for the fun of it. Fortunately ,there was one other siao gang of alg guys who are even more siao than us three. lol... you know who you are. After the opening ceremony programme ended, I get to experience another ceremony---the present-giving ceremony of the most siao birthday gift ever. Good one.

So much for now...there are lotta other silly stuff but I'm too lazy to blog it all up here...Tata!

Colours Of The Wind

Yes people, don't laugh. I entered the first ever dance competition in my life. No, it wasn't exactly the sort of dance competitions that I wished to enter, it's far far from that. It's a traditional dance competition. Not that there's anything cool to be expected here. But it's a competition all the same. however lousy it sounds.

We registered ourselves up 2 days before the competition. We never planned to enter in the first place. I don't know how we ended up submitting our names and coming up with a choreography in only a few hours. Never had I ever done a choreography in such a short time, and it's amazing how I was able to do it, with help from a couple of friends, of course. And the most amazing thing is, the choreography ended up being one of the best piece we have ever done!!! It's simply lovely. Compared to our other choreography which are somewhat, inexperienced and raw; this is simple, but delicate. I wished we could have more time to practise. Such a nice choreography, but too less time to practise. Our group of 8 dancers learnt all the steps and practised it in only 3/4 hours, and then it is presented onstage already. Imagine how seriously short of time we were! And on top of that, we stole a large chunk off our practise time to watch the Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony. Sweat.

Nevertheless, I am quite proud of our job. We didn't put in much effort, but we seems to end up gaining more than what we expected. We performed quite well for a dance practised for only a few hours; If I were the judge, I'll give 60%-synchronisation, 50%-emotion, 90%-choreography. ^-^ It really is an honest score.

Thanks friends for helping me choreographing the dance. It's somewhat a fusion dance; contemporary, chinese traditional, ballet and lyrical dancing. And the song's a typical ballet song which kids love to perform to--- Colours Of The Wind. Even our story sounds a little like "The Changeling", minus the props. Not that I know anything about Ballet, it's just that I've read some ballet books before.

So, our dance goes like this: It started with a group of 7 fairies, awakening from their deep slumber. They started playing & dancing around happily. Seven fairies with colourful clothes, dancing with bright pink ribbons. And then here I come, as a little girl, wondering into the land of fairies. Two friendly ones welcome me in, and tell me awesome stories. I tried to join them in their dances, but I find myself different. It was then I felt lost. And there were some other fairies who was hostile towards me. The leader of the fairies tried to bring her whole troop of fairies to detest me, to chase me away from their circle. I was lost and confused, sad and unaccepted. In the end, the fairies left me one by one, leaving me to do a sad dance, and to fall to the ground, out of exhaustion.

Dramatic right? I wonder how could I portray such a difficult role. The dances helped me a lot though. The only thing I have to do is to add in some emotion, lots of facial expression, and let the dance moves do it all. Sounds hard, yea? but I supposed I had tried my best. And I enjoyed it, very much. That's the only most important thing that matters, isn't it? That we enjoyed the whole dance.

Happy dancing, my friends. Nice working with you all.