Dear Sifu

There are things I'd always wanted to tell you.
I saw this note I wrote in my diary today, and it reminds me of the things that you once told me. Maybe the storms are over for you now, neways, this late message is still, about the things I just wanted you to know.
That day during new year I went to your house, and I see that you are happy enough. It's comforting to know that. I hope you can always be as happy. God bless.


22-8-2008

师父，你总给我一种无忧无虑的感觉。我印象中的你，总像个活在通话世界里的孩子，自己制舞衣，自己教自己喜欢的学生，跳自己喜欢的舞…… 总是那么自在愉快。有时总让我很羡慕。可这一次，我竟看见了你无忧无虑背后的一面。你说我听了那么多，我才懂，原来你也有你的烦恼，你也有你的悲伤。

师父呀，你总对人人都好。

可是你懂吗，不是人人都懂得回报你的好。未必的。你要明白世界的残酷啊！记得吗，我总说你常想人家比想自己还要多，这样总会让你很容易受伤的。像现在一样。对不起呀，可是我只得告诉你，这就是世界的现实。很多时候，你真的不能对人太无私的好，会让你遍体鳞伤的。这是我一早便学懂的道理。师父呀，你也要学着。在经历了这一切以后，我想你会吧！

当时你问我：“我是不是很好？是不是对人都太好？”

我点点头，当然赞同。

你便一脸疑惑了：“可是为什么别人还要这样反过来伤害我？”

我想你一定是摸不着为什么。我也无法回答你什么。我也不懂。世界要残酷，也许真的不需要什么理由。谁人要伤害你，要背叛你…… 也往往不须要太多的理由。

师父，只求你能坚强。
不要因一次的挫败而永垂不起。
不要放弃你的爱。
也请继续你的好。

只是，你要学习看清楚这一个世界。当中，有许许多多的丑陋与险恶…… 那些不由得你来掌控的剧情，…… 你都要一一看清。


你是一个很有大爱的人。如你，上帝必会看顾。 我也会为你祈祷。祈求你不会再这样受伤害。
继续坚强吧！继续坚守信念吧！继续爱着吧！

I'm glad you got through.
Proud of you. ^_^

Día Uno

It's Day 1.
I'm still not back.
I wanna dance. These tired feet.
This weary heart.
A lifeless Rhumba.

Good thing you weren't here to see.

I can't possibly Jive.
At least not now.
Little children always Jive better, I think.
Their Jive's always lighter. Maybe cuz their minds are.
My batteries are down;

But my phone's always charged.

Blue sweater on my bed.
Precious things snug in my heart.
Guess I can get through.
I'll be coming back soon. Your angel of all seasons.
Bless me, pray for me.
I'll not make you worry.

The next Rhumba's gonna be better. I promise.

Just wanna quote a sentence from Elisa's lyrics:
"Life goes on, here and beyond that horizon..."

And so we will. ^_^

la última nosotros vez que bailó...

When was the last time we danced?


Do you still remember?
The little black dress.
The blue sweater.
La Rhumba? Sí, la Rhumba.


There's this rain. Pouring rain.
There's this umbrella. Small and frail.
There's this smile. Rainbow.

Wet pants. Even wetter feet.

Sliding, spinning across the floor. New York, a Sliding Door...

Had been so long ago.



I've been dancing alone...

I'm saving every last dance...

For You.

Randomness

It's already 1.11am now.... the weather is so hot that I can't possibly sleep. Yet again, I can't nerd can't think can't eat can't do anything I'm so tired.


Apparently there are so many things I gotta do; I need to nerd chemistry biology prepare my ctu presentation stuff try not to read off the slides tat's kinda a waste of my time gotta get this feeling off my mind gotta stop being emo for someone's sake gotta work on three tips - feel, walk and carry, gotta get this song out of my head I would so want to dance and work on those dance steps omg i'm already so deteriorated I won't be able to even face my sifu and my split it's been so long I havent done it don't know whether I can do it anymore awww... I was so near to a complete perfect split I don't wanna start all over again the process is so painful I am already in so much pain I dont need any anymore God please help me there are so many things I gotta learn and so many things I have to endure and I promised to stay happy gotta keep it I want to acheive my dreams and my only hope you know what it is *wink* I want to enter latin dance competitions but I'm so far from my dream but I won't give up it cannot be I just need more time oh yes time is what I need cuz for one more time so many things I want to do for one more time if only I have one more day everyday I will have forever still remember? gotta wake up early tomorrow william and ctu am already exhausted thinking of that can I ponteng but if so, I much wanted to ponteng friday at least the weekend will be longer no I shouldn't dream about that though I so wanted to *maybe I should* I'm afraid I might get sick if i continue sleeping so late please recover soon don't keep me worrying gotta take care time is running out there's less than 3 weeks to my trials shouldn't be so tired should nerd more shouldn't be here but there is somewhere I so wanted to go but won't be able to guess I should really stop this crap and go to bed and hope that my dreams will be sweet as for the dreams I NEED to accomplish will continue working hard towards them when I am regenerated no I won't give up again I say so I shall say a bedtime prayer now pray that tomorrow will be a better day God please give me renewed strength to continue what I left undone today I pray for good health pray to take away this tiredness pray that one day my dreams will all come true God please guide me, us and bless us O Lord Amen...


NitezzZ...

Run

Came across this really emo song --- Run by Leona Lewis... I like it better than Bleeding Love...

*I'm currently into L.L and Taylor Swift...lolx...*

I’ll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You’ve been the only thing that’s right
In all I’ve done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we’ll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we’ll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can’t raise your voice to say